Old SC - urge to kill -2 - 1 - Sociopath Community

by vivek

this is a continuation to the urge to kill -1.....

As a young child(cant remember the age but was under 6) I used to smash, strangle, suffocate little insects. I also remember a special friend that used to like to chop up rats and mice with me.

When I was 6 -7 years old, a lot of accidents started to happen around me, like a retarded child that I hated suffering a head injury.

As far as the questions go..

1. How is a Serial Killer made?

Although everyone has a different answer and opinion on this, I do believe that serial killers are born with a desire to kill and that certain events that happen in their life will shape them and better prepare them to act out on these thoughts.

It's a blood lust and once you quench that thirst it just comes back stronger than before. It's entered my dreams.

I do believe that childhood has a big part in how a serial killer turns out. When I first found out that I was a serial killer, I started reading about others and realized that I had a lot in common with all of them and even shared the same exact childhood as more than a few.

The three most commonly known and shared "signs" are Cruelty to animals, starting fires, wetting the bed. as you already know.

There are many others but I will just go into these three.

The only reason I can give for torturing and killing animals as a child would be for pleasure. I also tortured and beat them to make myself feel happy if I was sad.

I remember one time when I was about 6 or 7, I was crying like a wimp and I blinded one of my dogs and it brought a smile to my face instantly.

I also liked to play mind tricks on them, I had a puppy who would always run away from me after I beat her and she would hide under the house by going through a hole that lead into the basement.

One day I made friends with her again and we had a fun time playing in the yard, I attacked her and let her run to the hole.

Much to her surprise, I had blocked it off with a sheet of plywood. That's when the fun began but that's another story.

The only reason I'd kill a dog now would be for educational purposes only. Like trying out different things to see if they would work.

For instance, I learned recently that if you combine certain household items, (wont go into detail) you could actually get the substance to eat through flesh AND most bone.

If I wanted to test this theory out it would be more practical to test it out on a dog rather than a human, unless of course I already had a human in my possession.

As far as some of the claims that animals are easier to lure and that killing defenseless animals is wrong goes..

Humans aren't that much harder to lure than dogs are, when it comes to luring anyway. You just have to appeal to their senses and they will go with you pretty much anywhere you want them to go.

And I can't really see any difference between killing an animal and killing a bound man/woman.

Some people may think, that it's not as easy to bind a human as it is a dog but there is really no difference if you make the human believe that you wont kill her unless he/she resists.

2. Why do they kill/What makes them tick?

I will assume that you are not asking for motive but why serial killers act on thoughts and circumstances that many other people have and go through.

n other words, what makes them actually kill instead of just having these odd/sick thoughts and going on with their lives normally, as many other people do.

The answer to this question is like the others, it will vary from serial killer to serial killer.

In my case, it all began the first time I watched the video "3 hammer 1 guy".after watching that video i felt POWERFUL in a strange way.

I had always thought about killing/death, probably more than I should have, but after this event I began to become obsessed with murder often without an hour passing by where I thought about anything else.

Now I seem to be thinking about murder more than ever, dreaming it everytime I sleep. And the thoughts have become more elaborate.

I don't really just think about killing someone anymore, I think of how to go through with it. How to lure them, how to to silence their screams if I want to torture them, how to get rid of them etc..

Now, I am no professional...I am barely an amateur but as time goes on, I will have more stories and more experience and I will eventually get caught/killed.

Despite knowing this, I will continue to think about these things and I will continue to serial kill.

My motives are a lot like Leonard Lake's. I just want someone that I can love and put back in the closet.

I want someone that I can keep company with during those lonely nights but having a normal relationship is not possible for me.

Plus, killing is just fun.

It is known that releasing aggression relieves stress. If punching a pillow makes you feel good, you can believe that punching someones face or beating them with a chain will make you feel even better.

Well, I guess I'm done rambling and just in case someone is offended because of my words and decides to inform the authorities, just remember I'm just kidding.

And if any Law Enforcement personnel is reading this, whether I'm kidding or not makes no difference.

This is not a confession.

There is no crime that I can be charged with and even if i have killed a girl or two there is no evidence. There is no probable cause for a search warrant.

And as far as the animal abuse goes, I do not confess to any crimes..So don't waste your time...Since this is obviously just a joke.

To the self-righteous hypocrites who may want to kill/lynch/judge me for my sins:

Don't waste your time either since the law protects everyone and I will be well within my rights to defend myself through the use of force with any of my many weapons. I may be a murderer but so are you.

To those who think they can come up with some ingenious way of killing me:

I do not lead a normal life like some serial killers. I will not be surprised by any of you, on the street or in my home. I have taken extreme measures to ensure of this.

So don't try, I cannot use the publicity.

To the media and anyone else who will most likely read this when I am exposed.

If you find anything offensive or disturbing about what I have said, you are no better than anyone who takes a life.

And if society has anything to do with what shapes the mind and actions of a serial killer, you are that part of society which contributes to it.

You are lacking in the same feelings of empathy, compassion, mercy, love or remorse that you judge a murderer for not showing.

If you take someones life, you should be put to death but to refuse him these things makes you no different than any murderer.

And to those who did not read this post completely:

THIS IS NOT A CONFESSION

and if feel sorry for the living things i may have killed YOU ARE NOT A SOCIOPATH.

DON'T POST RUDE COMMENTS!!!!!IF YOU WANT TO BE FRIENDS WITH ME I AM HERE FOR YOU..BUT IF YOU HAVE SOMETHING MEAN TO SAY ...THEN SHUT THE FUCK UP AND MIND YOUR OWN BUSINESS.

AND IF YOU DONT UNDERSTAND ANYTHING I HAVE WRITTEN THEN READ PROPERLY STUPID IGNORANT IDIOT.

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You're english has certainly improved in the day or so since your last post haha

If you're gonna troll, atleast be consistent, you fucking dumb paki piece of shit.