Okay I'm 17 and I'm worried I could be a sociopath I don't really know why I'm worried, I would be fine with being a sociopath as long as I could still live my life and not harm people. This has only come around at the age of 17 though, I have felt guilt and shame before and I have felt love I'm sure, I've been in a relationship for a year and a half and I grew up a nice person, I think. I had pets which I was upset about when they passed away and I have a dog now I always loved I'm sure I did. Anyway this is what im feeling like now, basically I don't give a fuck about much, I feel like I'm getting urges to harm my dog and other people. I don't want to be around people they irritate me lots, my anger towards people is heightened and I can't stand them recently, but I grew up with lots of friends I liked to be around, now I'd rather be on my own, I feel I could easily lie and manipulate and not care, I just don't want the urges to harm or anything, if they weren't there I'd be fine with being a sociopath, I use to be a right soft person, something for you guys to laugh at, but now I feel no love compassion or anything, just anger and hate, very very irritable and feel like I have to put things on emotion wise. Not long ago my grandmother died I didn't cry, I didnt really feel sad, I even carried the coffin, I think I cried because well I was expected to, I guess I would cry for a bit of attention too, I guess sometimes I think I'll never see her again, and get a empty feeling and feel sad actually but I dont know, i feel my personality has changed but like I said it happened at this age now, before that I was not like this. Hope you guys can help
According to DSM IV anyway:
"B) The individual is at least age 18 years.
C) There is evidence of conduct disorder with onset before age 15 years."
You just sound like you're somewhere between apathetic and frustrated, but I could be wrong.
How much experience do you have with bottling?
by JeromeBOkay I'm 17 and I'm worried I could be a sociopath I don't really know why I'm worried, I would be fine with being a sociopath as long as I could still live my life and not harm people. This has only come around at the age of 17 though, I have felt guilt and shame before and I have felt love I'm sure, I've been in a relationship for a year and a half and I grew up a nice person, I think. I had pets which I was upset about when they passed away and I have a dog now I always loved I'm sure I did.
You're 17 and have felt guilt, shame and you're sure you've felt love. You consider yourself a nice person and had/have pets that you've always loved. You're sure of it.
After you've turned 17 recently the plot turns-
Anyway this is what im feeling like now, basically I don't give a fuck about much, I feel like I'm getting urges to harm my dog and other people. I don't want to be around people they irritate me lots, my anger towards people is heightened and I can't stand them recently, but I grew up with lots of friends I liked to be around, now I'd rather be on my own, I feel I could easily lie and manipulate and not care, I just don't want the urges to harm or anything. If they weren't there I'd be fine with being a sociopath.
From all the cute cuddly feel good emotions you say you've felt you're whole life (before this new found age of 17) there is absolutely nothing here that say sociopath.. Who or what have you harmed before if you have done anything?
I use to be a right soft person, something for you guys to laugh at, but now I feel no love compassion or anything, just anger and hate, very very irritable and feel like I have to put things on emotion wise. Not long ago my grandmother died I didn't cry, I didnt really feel sad, I even carried the coffin, I think I cried because well I was expected to, I guess I would cry for a bit of attention too, I guess sometimes I think I'll never see her again, and get a empty feeling and feel sad actually but I dont know, i feel my personality has changed but like I said it happened at this age now, before that I was not like this.
Everything you've said so far just sounds like teenage hormones. You mention anger, hate, and irritable but only recently. This all started happening recently when you turned 17, and recently you're grandmother died. I'm sure there's no connection there with you're bottled up big boy feelings. You even get sad sometimes because she's never coming back and you will never see the old hag again.
Hope you guys can help
To answer your thread title, no. You're a teenager growing up and becoming more irritated, and have a dead grandmother.
It's more the thoughts of wanting to hurt people, and not really being how I use to be eg I see people as objects really. You're right the things I use to feel don't point towards sociopathic, but how I feel now, I feel kind of empty. In my past I have nothing that points towards it, I never hurt animals, however I did hurt insects, drowned spiders, poared boiling water over flys in containers, set spiders on fire deoderised them, but then went through a point of thinking everything has a right to live all this bollocks. And bottling as in smashing someone over the head with a bottle? Haha
"I did hurt insects, drowned spiders, poared boiling water over flys in containers, set spiders on fire deoderised them"
They deserve such treatment.
"I know the DSM says 18, and I'm 18 next month, but I believe someone could be one before the age of 18."
"C) There is evidence of conduct disorder with onset before age 15 years."