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The other day I was leaving work, I caught a glimpse of my woman of intrest walking down the street.  I didn't see her face, only her back. I recgonized her stature, walk and the style of her hair. I pulled into a back alley and began my pursuit on foot. There's nothing that'll creep her out more than me following her, so the plan was to place myself ahead of her. Sit on some park bench as if I had previously been pre occupied when she came across me. I trailed her 6-7 blocks before postioning myself. 

She made an unexpected turn into a coffee shop, forcing me to enter in after her. Once I got inside the coffee shop was packed, people were leaning against the walls since there was nowhere to sit. I immediately saw her ordering at the front, walked and with eyes on me I placed my hand on her shoulder. Immediately she spun around highlighted hair flying and whipping my collared shirt. It wasn't her, just some woman staring in confusion and fear. I froze. With a full audience I just froze up, all at once I was hit with a symphony of emotions. Confusion, disappointment, depression, disgust and shame. Longest walk back to my car in my life.

Are there any triggers that excite a certain behavior in you? What behavior and why?

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Thankfully, my only triggers are things of an OCD-like nature, and most of them I have conditioned into something manageable.

My PTSD triggers are all gone through excessive conditioning since such weakness I considered beneath me.

I had a trigger related to hair color and height thanks to my ex-fiance for a while, but in time that left me too.

My behaviors tend to be avoidant or ritualistic in nature.


"She made an unexpected turn into a coffee shop, forcing me to enter in after her."

Forcing? Interesting word choice. Do you feel in control during these moments, or is it purely compulsive, going along for the ride?


"It wasn't her, just some woman staring in confusion and fear."

This is a pretty stellar punchline. Did you at least manage a "Sorry, thought you were someone else"?

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One of my biggest triggers is someone trying to dominate me. Particularly women- and even more so if it is for the sake of conquering me, not because they are naturally more dominant. The first time Elicit tried to order me to something for her gratification, and to test me- see if I could handle submitting to her- it flipped a switch. And I bucked her like a wild horse.

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It's a vicious compulsion,  half of the time I don't notice my legs moving.

And no. I just stared with what I can only imagine as a hurt, crazy look on my face. Which reciprocated the confusion and fear. Thankfully no one I know personally was there to see me like that.

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a particular interest i get is towards silent non involving individuals while i am bored. I have followed around both female or male people. because i was curious and had nothing to do.

also when i am drunk and bored(usually on my way home at night) and i see a nice looking gal, i want to put her in rather unpleasant situation. because it excites me. so i try to never be bored and drunk for prolong periods of time.

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by Systematic

The other day I was leaving work, I caught a glimpse of my woman of intrest walking down the street.  I didn't see her face, only her back. I recgonized her stature, walk and the style of her hair. I pulled into a back alley and began my pursuit on foot. There's nothing that'll creep her out more than me following her, so the plan was to place myself ahead of her. Sit on some park bench as if I had previously been pre occupied when she came across me. I trailed her 6-7 blocks before postioning myself. 

She made an unexpected turn into a coffee shop, forcing me to enter in after her. Once I got inside the coffee shop was packed, people were leaning against the walls since there was nowhere to sit. I immediately saw her ordering at the front, walked and with eyes on me I placed my hand on her shoulder. Immediately she spun around highlighted hair flying and whipping my collared shirt. It wasn't her, just some woman staring in confusion and fear. I froze. With a full audience I just froze up, all at once I was hit with a symphony of emotions. Confusion, disappointment, depression, disgust and shame. Longest walk back to my car in my life.

Are there any triggers that excite a certain behavior in you? What behavior and why?

 

i like how you're not even remotely embarassed at what a fucking moronic sick fuck of a  loser you are.    

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by Turncoat

Thankfully, my only triggers are things of an OCD-like nature, and most of them I have conditioned into something manageable.

My PTSD triggers are all gone through excessive conditioning since such weakness I considered beneath me.

I had a trigger related to hair color and height thanks to my ex-fiance for a while, but in time that left me too.

My behaviors tend to be avoidant or ritualistic in nature.


"She made an unexpected turn into a coffee shop, forcing me to enter in after her."

Forcing? Interesting word choice. Do you feel in control during these moments, or is it purely compulsive, going along for the ride?


"It wasn't her, just some woman staring in confusion and fear."

This is a pretty stellar punchline. Did you at least manage a "Sorry, thought you were someone else"?

 

How does a someone with a this condition develop PTSD? Are you familiar primary and secondary psychcopathy? Does this apply to you then?

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For moronic fuck, I'm doing quite well. Besides this nasty habit of mine, there's nothing to be embarrassed of.

But, just out of curiosity what aspects of my behavior do you consider "sick".

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Entitlement and arrogance, unrewarded "favors" that have little benefits, certain sounds and smells.

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I could see that. But, this system seems to be working out in life.

These favors, are you referring to me doing things for my target? Because they are few and far between.

 

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