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8:51 Turncoat: ...being raped. <_<;

8:51 Synthetic: Well this just got deep.

8:51 Turncoat: XD

8:51 retsiger: you got raped?

8:51 Turncoat: I'm over it.

8:51 Turncoat: So I can talk about it.

8:51 Tryptamine: I am curious about what happened from your perspective as a masochist, that sounds slightly serious though lol

8:51 retsiger: how did that happen?

8:51 Turncoat: Crazy stalker type met me the first week of college.

8:51 Turncoat: Overweight, sweaty, gross monstrosity.8:52 Tryptamine: Omg

8:52 Turncoat: Wore this clay mask of sorts, could always smell it.

8:52 Turncoat: She was also highly delusional and narcissistic.

8:52 Tryptamine: Holy shit

8:52 Turncoat: Couldn't comprehend that I didn't want it.

8:52 Turncoat: It was years after her and I knowing eachother.

8:52 bump: lol

8:52 retsiger: yeah, nobody would turn down such a nice lady

8:53 Turncoat: She was a mess of emotions, and was kicked out of the group for it and re-added often.

8:53 Synthetic: Haha.

8:53 bump: This is good...

8:53 Tryptamine: This woman raped you?

8:53 Turncoat: She tried to organize backstabbing and all that so that she could have me to herself.

8:53 bump: I' have you squirm and beg me to stop, TC

8:53 Turncoat: Be the "only friend left".8:53 bump: I'd ignore you, of course8:53 Tryptamine: Eww

8:53 Turncoat: I was the only one who noticed.

8:53 Turncoat: I had to keep re-educating my dense group of friends.

8:54 Synthetic: Were you drunk when she raped you?

8:54 Turncoat: Eventually they were socially battered into accepting her behavior.

8:54 Synthetic: Or was she just that big?

8:54 Turncoat: I'll get to the rape after her background's set up.

8:54 retsiger: lol

8:54 Synthetic: Ok.

8:54 Turncoat: She could get pretty much anything she wanted because she was the queen of annoying when she didn't get her way.

8:54 bump: I'd cut TC's face, and watch the realization that I don't care about his limits darken his eyes in fear :3

8:54 bump: Then the REAL fun begins

8:55 Turncoat: Hawt.

8:55 Turncoat: Anyway

8:55 Synthetic: Lol.

8:55 Turncoat: She was going behind my back and spreading information about me to other people so that I could not succeed relationship-wise.

8:57 Synthetic: Hahaha. What was she saying?

8:57 Turncoat: Tried to make me out as this horrible person, which with my reduced emotions and dry deliveries was believable for some people apparently.

8:57 Turncoat: She was so pathetic that people trusted her out of pity.

8:58 Turncoat: It was weird.

8:58 Turncoat: She made ugly into a tool of control.

8:58 Synthetic: Haha.

8:58 Tryptamine: Because everyone thought she was such shit she was sincere

8:58 Turncoat: No really, it sounds funny, but I never saw it work that well.

8:58 Turncoat: It was a mix of that and introducing ideas to poison their future thoughts.

8:58 Turncoat: After the first few I began mapping it

8:58 Turncoat: But people looked at me like I was crazy.

8:58 Turncoat: Anyway

8:59 Turncoat: Was dating the fast one, naturally the blob monster managed to worm her way toward her since she was in my group of friends.

8:59 Tryptamine: lol8:59 Turncoat: When I'd have to work on projects overnight8:59 Turncoat: She'd work her words into her head.

8:59 Turncoat: And I'd have to return and dispel it.

9:00 Turncoat: Eventually I grew stressed and that was how it ended.

9:00 Mika: Turn :)

9:00 Turncoat: Just like she planned.

9:00 Mika: Long time you've been active

9:00 Turncoat: Now, I was dating a nymphomaniac.

9:00 Turncoat: Going cold turkey after being broken into those patterns?

9:00 Tryptamine: She took advantage?

9:00 Turncoat: It made me into a weird shaky mess.

9:01 Turncoat: I kept the door locked and tried to work it out of my system.

9:01 Turncoat: But you know, friends were allowed in.

9:01 Turncoat: So she would walk in with others.

9:01 Turncoat: There was a time that the others left to play some "Magic the Gathering".

9:01 Turncoat: And I was not in the mood.

9:01 Tryptamine: lol

9:01 Turncoat: So they left and she stayed behind.

9:02 Turncoat: But at the time I was blindsighted, literally, my eyes were facing a TV Screen.

9:02 Tryptamine: So you just passively went along with what she wanted?

9:02 Turncoat: Heavy, nasty creature, grappled both shoulders into the bed.

9:02 Synthetic: Ew.

9:03 Turncoat: I was in my own room, so my protection was some hospital scrubs I used as pajamas.

9:03 Turncoat: So it was just a drawstring that offered protection.

9:03 Turncoat: Didn't last.

9:03 bump: :3

9:03 Turncoat: During all of this while in a weird paralyzed state of sorts, she began whispering dark stuff.

9:03 Tryptamine: Oh god lol

9:03 Synthetic: Like what?

9:04 Tryptamine: Holy shit

9:04 Turncoat: When I would start regaining my senses she'd hit me.

9:04 bump: :33

9:04 Turncoat: Which would bring back the docile state.

9:04 Turncoat: She half-recognized that I'd snap out of it and ruin her fantasy

9:04 Turncoat: While also in denial, saying that it was consentual from both parties.

9:05 Mika: bump!

9:05 Mika: Where have you been? :O

9:05 Tryptamine: If she wasn't disgusting that would be hot

9:05 Turncoat: So she'd do it out of desperation.

9:05 Turncoat: She just rode me, pressing my hips into the bed violently to the point that they were beyond sore.

9:05 Turncoat: Saying dark shit

9:06 Turncoat: Smelling of clay and sweat.

9:06 Tryptamine: Clay lol

9:06 Synthetic: Ew.

9:06 Tryptamine: How did you feel about it all

9:06 Turncoat: Eventually I came, which was actually scarier than the event.

9:06 Turncoat: At least during I was mostly blacked out, took a while to bring the memory back.

9:06 Tryptamine: That is an utterly bizarre sexual experience

 9:07 Turncoat: I fled to the bathroom in a sick stupor and vomitted into a stall.

9:07 Turncoat: Once that was done, I realized she would still be in my room.

9:08 Turncoat: And there she was, spreading a gross sweat stain on my sheets.

9:08 Synthetic: Did you get revenge?

9:08 Turncoat: Hahahaha oh man did I.

9:08 Synthetic: Haha what did you do?

9:08 Turncoat: But I had to become... myself again to do it.

9:08 Tryptamine: lol

9:08 Turncoat: Which took a while.

9:09 Turncoat: I was highly post traumatic, just blocking out her future attempts for my own sanity.

9:09 Tryptamine: Jesus

9:09 Turncoat: I had a lot of other shit going on and there was nowhere else to go, so I just blacked it out.

9:09 Synthetic: :(

9:09 Synthetic: I would have said

9:09 Synthetic: What are you still doing here you dumb slut?

9:09 Turncoat: I wasn't really able to talk.

9:09 Turncoat: She did all the talking.

9:10 Synthetic: I guess.

9:10 Tryptamine: What did you do to make amends?

9:10 Turncoat: She'd drag me into the Recycling area to fuck me in a small room, then, with her amazing ability to spread poison, she framed it as me being ashamed as opposed to a victim.

9:10 Turncoat: Roomie returned after the first few times

9:10 Turncoat: And I finally had the courage to say something.

9:10 Turncoat: He laughed.

9:10 Turncoat: It was out of nervousness

9:11 Turncoat: So I took it as being laughed at.

9:11 Turncoat: And kept it to myself for a while.

9:11 Turncoat: Which she then took even more advantage of.

9:11 Synthetic: That's when you tell her you just used her for sex and yeah you're ashamed so she should kill herself because nobody would want to be seen with her.

9:11 Turncoat: Anyway, eventually I made it back to my nympho ex

9:11 Tryptamine: She should kill herself lol

9:11 Turncoat: Told her.

9:11 Synthetic: Truth is irrelevant the point is to make her want to die.

9:11 Turncoat: She became outraged, but recognized how poisonous her information is.

9:12 Synthetic: Haha.

9:12 Turncoat: And how little she could actually do as influence.

9:12 Turncoat: She had made my ex out to be this demon.

9:12 Turncoat: To the point that the breakup got me a free meal.

9:12 Tryptamine: She sounds like an attention grubby fatass who caught you at the wrong time

9:12 Turncoat: Oh no, she didn't catch.

9:12 Turncoat: She orchestrated and waited.

9:12 Turncoat: She was sickeningly smart but really fucked up.

9:13 Tryptamine: Still gross lol

9:13 Synthetic: Ha.

9:13 Turncoat: Eventually down the line I began to start conditioning myself out of it.

9:13 Turncoat: Forced myself to face the memories, the ideas, did not give myself a choice.

9:13 Turncoat: I went through the horror to forcibly jade myself to it.

9:13 Tryptamine: You don't think you wanted that at the time?

9:13 Turncoat: The nympho ex also began fucking me as a friend with benefits

9:14 Synthetic: Haha.

9:14 Turncoat: And that helped me resist the paralysis a bit more.

9:14 Synthetic: That sucks that you get paralyzed like that.9:14 Turncoat: Even my being like "I don't want this" was just... not remembered a few seconds later.

9:14 Turncoat: Or handwaved with creepy excuses.

9:14 Turncoat: ...or she'd just pretend she didn't hear it and push herself at me to prove "the connection" physically.

9:14 Tryptamine: Sex is a powerful thing

9:14 Turncoat: To give an idea, she lost her virginity to a drunken rape.

9:15 Turncoat: The one who took advantage of me.

9:15 Synthetic: You should have convinced her you used her for sex.

9:15 Turncoat: She'd have liked that.

9:15 Synthetic: Make her feel bad etc.

9:15 Tryptamine: lol

9:15 Turncoat: Because it still gives her recognition.

9:15 Tryptamine: That's really reaching for the crumbs

9:15 Turncoat: She was pretty gone in the head, the wrong sort of rolling with it.

9:15 Tryptamine: Fuck that is one sad place to be at   

9:16 Turncoat: Oh, but it gets better.   

9:16 Turncoat: So to also help recover   

9:16 Turncoat: I did art projects on it.   

9:16 Tryptamine: Lol   

9:16 Turncoat: I knew I had to have it be a public thing to get over it.   

9:16 Synthetic: Haha   

9:16 Synthetic: OK that's even better.   

9:16 Turncoat: If I kept it my private shame, she'd not only get away with it, but I'd remain weak.   

9:16 Synthetic: A memorial to a psycho bitch.   

9:16 Turncoat: So I forced myself to deal with it.   

9:16 Turncoat: Insomnia got even worse.   

9:17 Turncoat: I started recovering and she began receding, friends wouldn't trust my claims either for seeming too crazy to be true or from the usual "How can a man be raped?"   

9:17 Turncoat: "The parts don't work that way."   

9:17 limey: You're a pretty deep guy aren't you TC?   

9:17 Turncoat: But then... came the end of the year.   

9:18 Turncoat: Friends wanted to shop for townhouses and appartments.   

9:18 Turncoat: We needed another roomie.   

9:18 Turncoat: And they were willing to let her be it.   

9:18 Tryptamine: Oh no   

9:18 Turncoat: I became extremely outraged, apparently the overemotional response scared people because they usually see "T_T"   

9:19 Turncoat: Began going on about what she did again, but she still made her way in there because they saw it as "easier to let her have her way".   

9:19 Turncoat: Out of comfort and safety.   

9:19 Synthetic: Wow.   

9:19 Turncoat: She'd held another friend of mine up at knife point a few times.   

9:19 Synthetic: Wtf.   

9:19 Turncoat: So she now lived in the same place as me.   

9:19 Turncoat: It made a lot of my progress regress.   

9:20 Turncoat: I knew I was safe when others were around, so I was desperate for others to stay awake.

 9:20 Turncoat: This flunkie began taking Adderol to no longer need to sleep.

9:20 Synthetic: That honestly sounds like PTSD holy fuck.

9:20 Turncoat: So that she could continue with school and still follow my lack of resting patterns.

9:20 Turncoat: This made her crazier.

9:20 Turncoat: As now she stopped sleeping.

9:20 Turncoat: And was on uppers.

9:21 Turncoat: She'd try to run into my room before I could get there.

9:21 Tryptamine: Uhh

9:21 Turncoat: The doors had locks, but she proved she could pick it with a credit card.

9:21 Synthetic: What.

9:21 Tryptamine: What the fuck

9:21 Turncoat: She would also go through my shelves.

9:21 Turncoat: When I wasn't around or was sleeping.

9:21 Tryptamine: She really wanted the D

9:22 limey: haha

9:22 Synthetic: Haha.

9:22 Tryptamine: That is intense

9:22 Turncoat: So she took advantage, no one was willing to help...

9:22 Turncoat: Eventually she became pregnant.

9:22 limey: Tc sorry for my ignorance in advance but how do the parts work like that?

 9:22 Turncoat: An erection does not need to be willing.

9:22 Tryptamine: Not with your child I hope

9:22 Turncoat: Oh it was my seed.

9:23 Tryptamine: Omfg

9:23 limey: wtf?

9:23 Red: lol, read my thread about male rape :D

9:23 Synthetic: Haha wtf.

9:23 Turncoat: Yeah, it's scary shit.

9:23 limey: This is like a 4chan story

9:23 Turncoat: Think about it.

9:23 Synthetic: It really is.

9:23 Turncoat: When a woman is pregnant from rape

9:23 Tryptamine: No dude, I would lose my shit

9:23 Turncoat: They have evidence.

9:23 Tryptamine: I don't even know what I would do

9:23 Turncoat: When a man is pregnant from rape, everyone sides with the woman.