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I took an online test that said I was definitely a narcissist and I value it just as much as I would if a psychologist said it to my face.

In this day and age, people diagnose themselves, and the Doctor is the last to know.

If anything, I never recalled anyone to have proclaimed an NPD diagnosis. But if you're interested in communicating with someone who has very strong characteristics in resonance with NPD, then talk to Dexter.

That'll provide Goddess with some of the things that Narcissists are likely to say in order to try to convince her that they're not narcissists, certainly, but I personally wouldn't recommend it to anyone who isn't interested in wasting hours of their time listening to someone screech about not being arrogant, because they usually end up listing the names of every single person they've ever known and providing incidences that "prove" that all of their acquaintances are more narcissistic than they are. Which is, of course, an incredibly narcissistic exercise indeed.

Actually, I can't think of anything more narcissistic than boasting about one's own humility.

People with NPD do not frequent forums like this. 

They can be found on the stock boards. They can be found on tech boards. They can be found especially on self help and guru forums. 

The NPD would never associate with deviants. Understand the disorder. It's about survival. They would not call attention to themselves with people like who come here. I'm interested in here because I too, am bored. People come here because they have an excess of ability, with no outlets. I work nights. I have a lot of time. 

NPDers have no ability. They may seem wise, well, where did they pick up the lingo? On Deepak Chopra's website. They watch and watch. They may seem vicious....where did they pick that up? From the stock boards and business boards. They watch and watch. 

When they get really good they start applying what they've learned and watching it make waves. Domination becomes a ritual, one that works and helps them stay alive. The more power they have, the more they can stop floating in space. They are souls without bodies, their bodies are numb. Literally. Like, nerves are severed literally. So they have no defined boundaries - think of melting into a wall. That's not fun is it?

So the more power they have, the more people they have to feed the voices and thought processes that filter through and become voices. These voices torture them. They have no origin in the self. They are like floating ideas that remind MN's that they are stupid and emotionally stunted. They must process them but have no machinery. So they find a surrogate. They slyly feed the surrogate the information and then the surrogate spits out their answer. But it doesn't end there. The answer has no emotional meaning. It's like holding an ice cream cone but not knowing you're supposed to eat it. It starts to melt, and that drives you to rage. Other people are watching you like you're crazy. And that makes you want to hurt them.

The MN resorts to rituals because it is the only thing that they can do with certainty. It's mindless. They don't need to understand it's meaning, they mimic others and therefore they appear to be formulating meaning. But the busy work is just distracting them because they will NEVER apply any meaning to anything. They have no emotional ability to do this. Remember, nerves are severed because their nerves were attached to the emotional centers that were damaged and faulty. 

The sadism comes from them projecting what the universe is doing to them, constantly. It's the only expression they know, suffering. 

I'm really hoping we can understand this disorder to a point where people want to research and help these people heal. Like spinal cord injuries, when we figure that out we might be repairing the brain.

Look up any captain of industry. People in religious environments. The people that seem really, really too good at something. Athletes. Politicians. The top echelons are all malignant narcissists. The wandering way-wards and hippie types, lazy people, they are the ones with the best fitness. They don't have to work that hard and have a billion dollars and a thousand bitches. They can wake up every day and find what they need without much effort. Things sorta backwards in da world. 

This accurately describes me to a T, minus the numbness. Pain is amplified for me. But this has been the case for years because of my apparent Somatization Disorder (As Turncoat and I found out). At this point, my tolerance for pain is uncanny.

I find the most pleasure in the suffering of others, but I find happiness in the enlightenment and empowerment of others. I don't associate pleasure with happiness - Happiness is a complex idea that has nothing to do with emotions. I'm sure this would be described as almost Angelic, by other people. Unconditional love? Or spiteful greatness? I'm not sure. But it makes me better than most for almost any environment.

The amount of strength it takes for me to think this way, when surrounded by nothing but failure, is unfathomable.

There is nothing to heal. There is nothing to fix. I recognize my infinite potential, and I will not let negative thoughts or negative events keep me from achieving that infinite potential.

Am I, officially, a Narcissistic person? No. But I've been told that the way I talk about myself projects beyond Narcissism, making it more like a God-complex. Do I think that I have a God-complex? No. But I don't even say half of the things that come into mind because they would appear "Extremely narcissistic."

I guess, the point is, whatever Narcissism is, I don't think it's such a bad thing. My behavior or state of mind, when perceived by others, may seem narcissistic, but I think it's just a form of psychological adaptation to the world as I see it.

by TheLeviathan

This accurately describes me to a T, minus the numbness. Pain is amplified for me. But this has been the case for years because of my apparent Somatization Disorder (As Turncoat and I found out). At this point, my tolerance for pain is uncanny.

I find the most pleasure in the suffering of others, but I find happiness in the enlightenment and empowerment of others. I don't associate pleasure with happiness - Happiness is a complex idea that has nothing to do with emotions. I'm sure this would be described as almost Angelic, by other people. Unconditional love? Or spiteful greatness? I'm not sure. But it makes me better than most for almost any environment.

The amount of strength it takes for me to think this way, when surrounded by nothing but failure, is unfathomable.

There is nothing to heal. There is nothing to fix. I recognize my infinite potential, and I will not let negative thoughts or negative events keep me from achieving that infinite potential.

Am I, officially, a Narcissistic person? No. But I've been told that the way I talk about myself projects beyond Narcissism, making it more like a God-complex. Do I think that I have a God-complex? No. But I don't even say half of the things that come into mind because they would appear "Extremely narcissistic."

I guess, the point is, whatever Narcissism is, I don't think it's such a bad thing. My behavior or state of mind, when perceived by others, may seem narcissistic, but I think it's just a form of psychological adaptation to the world as I see it.

I should clarify. It's not body numbness but a feeling of being disconnected emotionally. Yes, the body in narcissism is actually heightened in the sense. You might find that you have sensory issues, you can feel things others can't. Dust on your keyboard, you might be hypersensitive to filth and other things most other people tolerate. Sense of smell is also heightened. I'm currently studying why these sensory issues arise and I think it has to do with the original assault on the brain and its adaptive response. It has to do with glutamate, somehow. The brain is a wild ride. 

Yep, you probably have MN. What you are describing about happiness is dead on with that kind of thing. You are happy when others reach that state of enlightenment like you understand, but that doesn't last long as you soon realize this person understands these concepts you have discovered in a false sense. You are soon disappointed and angered by their lack of ability to truly get what it takes to achieve this sort of freedom? 

Spiteful greatness is a perfect way to describe it, yes. 

And you are correct, you have adapted. It is necessary for your survival. 

Well I did want to see if anyone here actually had this going on, my posts are structured in a way that helps me determine certain things. It's what I'm studying as of current. I appreciate the feedback. 

I wouldn't be terribly surprised if Whomeye turned out to be diagnosed with NPD rather than AsPD as he initially claimed. The guy disappeared immediately after the invasion of those puppets. Narcissists are, beneath their hostile and arrogant surface, extremely sensitive to criticism. And really, what kind of a badass sociopathic jailbird gets distressed over the appearance of a few puppets that were intended on mocking his online presence?

When your sole sympathizer has left, and you can't make a post without 3 people criticizing it and 4 people following you around with bastardized versions of your name mocking how you write, it may be time to move on.

by Helena

I wouldn't be terribly surprised if Whomeye turned out to be diagnosed with NPD rather than AsPD as he initially claimed. The guy disappeared immediately after the invasion of those puppets. Narcissists are, beneath their hostile and arrogant surface, extremely sensitive to criticism. And really, what kind of a badass sociopathic jailbird gets distressed over the appearance of a few puppets that were intended on mocking his online presence?

 I made one, he seemed to ignore it outright. Then the others must've joined.