by circinusWell yeah...I don't want to be the best at everything. There's not enough time for that. I was more musing that being naturally good at a bunch of things from a young age has made me lazy, which hinders progress in the areas I'd like to be 'expert' in. I do have a PhD, which came after 5 years of work that only passion can get you through. But maybe it's a kind of burnout? I feel incapable of putting that amount of effort into something again.
But where does that get me? I succumb to my own laziness and stop striving for excellence? Being unfettered by the baser emotions is perfectly worthless if I don't use the time it frees up. So I guess that's good enough rationale to start working again.
Rambling done. I guess I've worked out my thoughts on this.
Start working again? You sound like a burnt out bookworm. I say you take a break, do smth crazy for a few weeks. Go on an adventure, travel, try new stuff and disconnect from your work. Maybe you'll reboot with a newfound drive. If not...well, it'll still be worth it anyway :D