I was on a party recently and got hooked up with a girl. We fooled around a bit and eventually ended up in bed. We were alone there for four full hours and we talked a lot while there. She said that I excite her and that I'm a sweetheart and, you know, all that nice bullshit. However, the day after the party, she told me that she doesn't want a relationship now, that she isn't ready for it or anything at all. I told her that I respect her decision and that's it. Why am I telling this? Because I didn't feel shit. I didn't feel sad or happy, angry or calm, I felt nothing at all. A friend of mine was rather shocked at my "blankness" and didn't understand why aren't I feeling anything after all that? I don't know why. However, two days ago I got into a fight with a guy from school. My question is; Why didn't I feel anything after all that kissing and touching and everything, while I felt something while having blood on my hands? It was...nostalgic. It's been so long since I had so much blood on my hands, it's as if I something returned to me from a long long journey and I'm glad to see it. I was relaxed and...happy. Everytime I remember it, I smile like a lunatic. :D
Opinion, anyone?
Normal in that you're just like most people. You didn't care for her, therefore you felt nothing. I've heard many men say the same thing. Additionally, your reaction to blood is a common reaction. Not only is your spilled blood a rare sight but it is often one that causes physiological excitement (stress response, panic, rush of endorphins, elevated heart rate, adrenaline, etc.). Human beings tend to remember most vividly those moments when we are highly physiologically aroused. It's normal for you to feel that way. Was there any particular reason you're asking for opinions on a sociopath community?