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I'm still in direct harm of them if i let my guard down or if I get arrogant and too secure in my own awareness. Instead of exposure to attraction I consider it desensitization. The more I see or hear, the less I fall for in the end. I'm sure it's strange and sounds counterproductive but this has been a good strategy for me since July.  

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Why do you stay around if you've gotten the help you sought and a strategy to fend of your problems with?

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This forum is unmoderated. I can talk about raping, murdering and other sexually deviant things without getting perma-banned.

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Because 6 months can't undo a lifetime of poor choices and bad decisions. Just being aware of my own nature t isn't enough. The desensitization is ongoing. I've mentioned this before but I want to start a site eventually for adult children of narc parents and anyone prone to destructive relationships but now isn't the right time for that. 

Also, I talk to a very few former/current targets privately which has been very helpful to myself and hopefully them as well. Heading out so I won't be responding to this any more tonight but maybe this adds some clarity. 

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It does.

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She's actually grown a fair amount (from what I can tell anyway). There's been some lapses, but she's altered her nature a fair deal since her first original post (the deleted one).

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When you first saw her she was going through abstinence, but you guys were her "fix", so her abstinence is gone but the addiction lingers.

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It's more like she'd practically just escaped the attacker when she made her first post, and how she is now is the product of being distanced from him for this long, but it isn't only that. She is far more skeptical than before, something I'd argue is a healthy development from dealing with the comedy of this place.

It's better she get a "fix" here in short bursts while learning what's going on as opposed to from people who could actually have a physical impact on her life in more destructive ways, ones that might even have her learn nothing from the encounter. The "addiction" is still there, but it's something that needs to be overcome through learning and recognition, something she also has improved on. The net also provides a means of distancing yourself real life might lack, be it a matter of willpower or seemingly unavoidable situations. The net lacks true consequence until you link it too closely to your actual life.

Abstaining from it entirely is likely to just cause her to return to the dangers she's trying to overcome.

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You have great taste in music

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Originally I came here to observe disorders and their weaknesses. Eventually I sought relief with my stalking, which I found. 

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