by Thrill Kill
You don't have to act like a pathetic little wimp and pushover to avoid trouble. That's just your excuse for being that way.
Your colleagues don't respect you and that is pissing you off. So, don't give me this bullshit that it's all working out fine for you.
It's true, you don't have to act like a pathetic little wimp to avoid trouble. I'm acting like a wimp because in my specific environment I can act this way to get away with certain things and avoid being a suspect. It's worked out completely fine, proven by what I have managed to get away with and achieve.
They think that I have the mind of a precious little virgin boy, which is what amuses me. I stated in my OP that "if only they knew how I fantasize about bashing their heads in with golf clubs and fucking their stone cold asses". This is not a statement made out of anger, and I haven't seriously contemplated doing it.
It was just me being amused by their completely inaccurate view of my inner thoughts and feelings, which has come about because of the way I alter my persona, which has successfully lead me to get away with many things.
Respect from other humans is meaningless to me, unless I can gain something from it. Why should I care about others opinions of me unless them having a certain opinion of me means I can gain something from them? You see where I'm going? You see how this relates to why I try to get people to view me as a nice, sweet, pushover?