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on 3/16/2014
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Hey everyone.

 

I wanted to make a thread to ask you all about your past and how it effected you all, and how you dealt with it, like for example my past.

In grade school i was picked on a lot for being the loner, I was odd at times and use to draw almost every minute in class and recess, i use to read thick ass books on art topics like painting, anatomy, sculpting, drawing. 

so the other guys thought i was strange and decided to be assholes about it and abuse me every day in every free moment they had. One day the came up to me at lunch and i was sitting on the steps drawing in my sketchbook, the took my book and destroyed it of corse then decided to beat me up and break 2 ribs and my hand with a broken branch from one of the trees on the playground. I was this small little kid alone in a sea of giant douchbags. so after a few weeks in the hospital, i came back to school and watched them do their thing on the playground, i didn't draw i didn't read i just watched them. 

so a two weeks went by and i found out the "leader" dustin was allergic to peanuts and i had a peanut sandwich, i put two and two together and decided i wanted to kill him. i took a bit of PB from my sandwich and hid it in his ham sandwich as a thin layer he didn't know until he broke out in hives and his throat closed. I didn't know he would drop like that and it kinda weirded me out because i was thinking something else would happen like on the cartoons (duh stupid kids right) so he didn't die and no one knew it was me.

I was about 11 at the time, i still never got revenge on all of them but the revenge i got on dustin is hanging in the trophy case of my mind every time someone thinks about giving me shit. i think about him laying there gasping for air. that was the first time i picked up for myself.

 

 

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Haha that's awesome....good for you for trying to poison him.

I was bullied verbally everyday harshly from first grade to 5th but I don't remember it. I've phased it out...I don't think it ever bothered me too much. I got used to it. Most of the people that bullied me are criminals (probation/done time) now so it was clearly a classy krue.

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yea it always sucks to be a victim thats why i like being the abuser to the ones who try to get me first.

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I didn't blend all that well while in high school. I mostly just stayed to myself. People that spoke to me were either weirded out, or considered weird and didn't care. I often talked to the ones closer to me about how I wanted to go on a killing spree in the school because I thought it would be fun. I was involved in a decent amount of criminal activity, and I was pretty open about it. People just kind of left me alone.

 

After high school I went into the military. I started to blend much better at this point. But ones someone became close to me I would open up to them about my violent desires. I came off as such a nice person that oddly,  it usually wasn't enough to push someone away.

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like minded individuals don't get weirded out by each other, you found your home away from home 

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bump

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Tell us about the lambs, Clarice...

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on 3/16/2014
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I've never really been victimized or bullied, I never allowed it. If physical force was out of the question I used my intellectual advantage over the meat head and turned the crowd. Naturally I did some bullying myself instead.

In retrospect I can see how it could have been a learning experience for me if I had been a weak child. Not having any setbacks ever due to natural talent limits perspective.

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I witnessed and experienced a lot of violence and abuse growing up. Mostly at home. Not much ever really bothered me though, so it wasn't hard to deal with. I never saw myself as a victim and that, I believe, is what separates me from the weak people who blame their past for everything that goes wrong in their life.

It's a dog eat dog world. You have to be strong to survive. The more shit you go through in life, the stronger it makes you and after what I've been through, I'm proud to say I'm one of the strong.

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