Im not sure it was jealousy as much as it was justice. I always saw those boys bullying and fucking with the weaker kids and everyone still loves them. I wouldn't have wanted people to flock around me, I never liked those I grew up around.
And as for the animals, I never hunted them. I only mercy killed them. A fox whose leg was broken, a dying dog that someone had stabbed. I don't know if that's better or somehow worse.
by Dylan BlakeOh god no, not kids. I'd never harm a child. Such a disgusting thing to do.
Not even if a child happened to witness the crime and could potentially turn you in to the police?
What if you were hitchhiking through the woods and you happen to come across a 30 year old man and his 10 year old son camping in a fairly isolated location. There is no-one else around to witness your actions. You wouldn't take the opportunity to murder them both?
Only you will ever know you killed them.
by Thrill Killby Dylan Blake
There's a sexual element in it for me. I find the people I want to kill the most are the ones who are also sexually appealing. It's a turn on to imagine killing them.
Sex and murder go hand in hand in my opinion. I can't even get off during sex unless I'm fantasizing about killing the person I'm fucking.
I will make sure to keep my Glock within close proximity. :)
by Thrill Kill
by Dylan BlakeOh god no, not kids. I'd never harm a child. Such a disgusting thing to do.
Not even if a child happened to witness the crime and could potentially turn you in to the police?
What if you were hitchhiking through the woods and you happen to come across a 30 year old man and his 10 year old son camping in a fairly isolated location. There is no-one else around to witness your actions. You wouldn't take the opportunity to murder them both?
Only you will ever know you killed them.
Then children are your weak link. Thrill and I wouldn't hesitate in killing a child. Dylan, you are only as strong as your weakest link.
by Dylan BlakeIm not sure it was jealousy as much as it was justice. I always saw those boys bullying and fucking with the weaker kids and everyone still loves them. I wouldn't have wanted people to flock around me, I never liked those I grew up around.
And as for the animals, I never hunted them. I only mercy killed them. A fox whose leg was broken, a dying dog that someone had stabbed. I don't know if that's better or somehow worse.
How many of those people loving the 'bullies' weren't in fear of being turned on next? And you not wanting the attention of others for being a bully, makes sense. 1) you weren't and 2) [_] <-- fill in the blank from your perspective. In my case, I have no respect for bullies. I'd rather smash them into oblivion for being gutless pukes that they really are. And those that flock around a bully, aren't any better.
And every once in a while you have the maddening urge to rip somebody apart?
Mmmm....I can relate. But I know my reasons. It's not random. And under control. Nothing wrong with it, unless it controls you.
Do you rage? Emotional bullshit directed at some one without real cause? Shit like that?
Are you "clear" or reactive? Big difference. Rage/ Anger and going into the murderous zone are not necessarily about emotion at all in the conscious awareness, but below that, you will find the answer. And you wrote part of it in your following post.
If you are PPD or SPD, doesn't really matter. You are not delusional. The difference between right/ wrong and social moors and ethics are pretty damn clear. It's a Choice. Normals, or more empathic people are driven by it more so, guilt, remorse act to inflict emotional injury to the self. When you Lack that, there is more freedom, but at the same time, IMO, there is greater responsibility as well. To choose to act worse than a base ape, is not honing your capacity for your betterment. It's parasitic and a vulgar use of something which is innate.
There is tons of information and research on PPD/ ASPD and SPD...read it. None of it is a green light to be a prick or a parasite. There are no excuses. There are choices.
