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I've realized I've never done one selfless thing in my life. If I've
ever done something good, it was because I expected something good in
return. I have a problem with vanity. I have an extreme fear of aging
and death because of this. Thing is, I am under the impression that
sociopaths tend to be very intelligent people, and I have to admit, I am
not so intelligent.  I have little to no attention span. Poor memory.
And while my decisions are very well calculated, the calculations are
slow, and often do not work out in my favor. I do WISH I could be a good
person, I'm just... lazy. And I cannot stick up for myself, no
backbone. That's why I think I may be more of a narcissist, rather than
sociopath?

Most people expect something in return when they do something good. It's only when they don't get it they realize it. And who wants to age and die?

You admit that you are not so clever. Never in a million years would a true narcissist do that. You also admit that you fail without blaming anything (or anyone) outside of yourself. That rules out but narcissism and sociopathy. Conclusion: You are normal or perhaps have asperger's syndrome or something.

"You admit that you are not so clever. Never in a million years would a true narcissist do that. "

Unless they think they are the most humble person ever, possessing a rare talent in introspection that they believe most everyone else lacks while stating it generally to avoid direct comparison (if not using that sort of talking to manipulate someone).

Yeah, I doubt that's the case here too. Seeing as the post is from last July, I guess we'll never know~

You make a good point but I think that most narcissists would claim that they are humble. They perhaps even believe it themselves... Also what you wrote reminds me that I once said (as a joke) that I'm the most humble person in the world. If anyone thinks otherwise, he should challenge me.

I did some tests online for humility and did quite well. It's very hard to compete in humility.