For the record Edvard, while Sugar is at it, it's my preference to shed some light on this matter she brings up.
by thesugargirlby Spatial MindI'm talking about how this is God's way.(lol)
I did mention how I've been in Josh's shoes, with the whole someone trying to bend me into shape, and that I know this from experience. This does not mean what I have to say isn't valid, cause the power really is back in Josh's hands. It's others who want to talk about Alia and Edvard, like yourself, and Sugar, and Slime.
nope, i only asked about Tony's cancer comment. T explained his comment, and i explained that in the same sense T felt TNP had earned his cancer, T had earned his exposure. i didn't know that the two were connected at the time, until T told me, when T brought it up.
We were talking about my exposure at the time. That has a lot to do with it.
Back then, it was trendy to attack me. I'll respectfully mention things have been patched up between TNP and myself, and it's rude to talk about that part of the past. Still. There was a time TNP went completely ape shit at me, I shit you not a million times worse than all of Edvard's expressions directed at me combined. It was utter madness going on for weeks. His cool was out the window, and I got all kinds of insults and death threats from TNP.
During this madness he started accusing me of sending him child porn in his e-mail. His excuse for that was it can only be me. It was a delusional type of madness. At on point it has been speculated that TNP has capgras syndrome. I was wondering if that was it showing face. He wasn't angry, he was mad.
The type of community the forum used to be, was the type that would enable this type of behavior in others. Groupthinking was widely used, and up to this day we have people saying "Tony said TNP earned his cancer !" What drives me to wring this to you, Sugar, is that fact you mention how you explained to me that I felt TNP earned his cancer.
Granted there were long terms threats and a false accusations, I eventually said, and I quote:
"You may have never deserved the illness, but you sure as hell are earning it"
Very different than what you conclude, Sugar. Do I have a right to make a stand for myself ? Of course I do. By the way, if I edited that comment, a time stamp would show up on the post.
Regardless of all the falsehoods and accusations, the forum backed TNP. There is even mention from TNP of me making fun of his illness, but the only one to ever do that was UKan or as he called himself at one time, UKancer. I've heard that he poked fun at TNP's illness on other occasions. TNP just let it out on me in the midst of his psychosis.
Later on in that same post, Alia, who had my identity shows up stating that what I said almost made her cry, and that she was Edvard's level of emotional. She gave me the "I want you to apologize" "I don't care what he says back to you" The same thread is when I was outed. In exchange of my own dignity, I willed it.
She was so hungry for power, she went as far as to lie to the community saying how she knows where I work and live, for the sake of trying to further intimidate me. My 2 cents are valid when I stress how pathetic that is, and for reasons like that I often label Edvard a tool.
Tony started talking about the child porn shit, alia and edvard. i only corrected T when he said that any insults from him toward alia were on edvards head for bringing her up. that's like alia saying that she's going to put up a new picture of you every time ed mentions your name to her. DOESN'T MAKE MUCH SENSE, DOES IT?!
Yes. I ignored Alia and from there on, she carried on with behavior any bully would do when they strive for power. This was followed up with posting links of mine and included a calculated attack on my birthday, creating a thread exposing some of my family's accounts. I continued to ignore her pettiness.
Edvard on the other hand took a liking to provoking the situation, and I asked him countless times not to talk to me about Alia. With reason would I address her in degrading ways. And I would only do it when Edvard would come around and fan the flames.
The new situation was how I would say nasty things about Alia. Edvard likes Alia a great deal, so no matter what she does, he'll always be in her favor.
So I let Edvard know, for every time he provokes the situation is when say nasty things about Alia. The days of Edvard fanning the flame came to a grinding halt, making way for a finer healing process. Him bringing her up was no more, and Sugar ? That is a good thing. But something else happened, Edvard swore to become my mortal enemy and up to this day, he still declares hatred for me.
I've done what I did kindly. Whatever monster they see in me is a reflection of their own making, and my dignity, with the exception of a few minor scratches, is mine.
