I was born a psychopath.
I was raised in baptist churches as a child. My parents spanked me all the time until I told them I was not going to cry anymore. After that no matter how much they punished me I just didn't cry and eventually they gave up. The only thing I learned from their punishment was being more sneaky and not get caught.
When I was a kid I lit my first forest fire after seeing Rambo 2. I managed to burn down three acres of forest before the firefighters could contain the fire and two firemen suffered burn wounds because they were stupid enough to run into a burning fire and try to put it out. I did not mean to burn the forest down. The fire got out of control.
I have never been afraid of anything or anyone. In the absence of my fear is displeasure for getting caught. I have stood on the docks during a storm as the violent waves crashed around me. Each wave had the strength to suck me in and exterminate my life but in the middle of that violent storm I felt a strange peace. I could only gaze at the power of the waves in wonder. It was almost as if I could feel something summoning me, calling me. Due to my (at the time) wife's constant nagging I withdrew to make her shut up.
I am an alpha male. Those who attempt to intimidate me provoke my wrath. I have been in many violent fights. I like to fight. I like the taste of blood and I excel at physical violence. It comes very natural to me. It feels so good to damage people. When I feel like it, my mind rushes into bloodlust and I feel nothing but an immense urge to destroy and I can never stop myself. I am usually pulled off the person or something happens to hinder me long enough so that my mind to returns to controllable levels. I have never fought the same person twice and my violent intensity prevented others from pestering me.
I was on a path of ruthless destruction until I saw Heaven with my own eyes. For the first time ever I had these wounderful feelings. I was free. For the first time I was truly happy with this inner peace I had never felt before. It was like returning to a child's innocence The void of despair was gone! Then a surge went through my body and I was on this fucking planet again.
This may sound strange but I know I am right in saying we are God's children. God does not make mistakes. We are here to serve His purpose. Just as God made sheep, he also made wolves. He designed Us wolves to be His enforcers on earth. It is in our very design that we prey on others. In a way it is our duty to keep these sheep in line. We are the natural order. We are not given permission to go out and completely destroy the sheep. Just when they overstep the boundry. Then it is okay to smack them around and teach them. God knew we could never serve his purpose. Not as long as we felt guilt and remorse. That is why God took them from us. That is also why we lack fear. We must only remember not to kill them. That is where so many of the other psychopaths went wrong.
You see, normal people are the threat to humanity. Not us. They are the ones who are emotional. Wars that kill hundreds of thousands and lead to the suffering of so many are started by these people. Compelled by their fear, they commit horrible acts of genocide and all types of injustice. Because they are afraid. It must be terrible. Fear, that is. Sheep always have and always will be compelled by fear.
They fear us so much. We are different. We lack the cowardice that compells them and we are willing to die for what we know is right. We are the blood of the brave. God's true children. The sheep do not understand us. That is why they hate and fear us.
As a high anxiety psychopath, I often require intensity in my life. I need danger. I require danger. The chance of death stimulates me. When being in danger is not possible I try to medicate myself to relax. Medicating myself ensures others are safer but the laws dictate that what I do is wrong. In a way, society has decided to push me towards more violent measures. How ironic... The laws that were made to keep the sheep safe actually endanger them. The lack of logic. The blindness caused by their absurd emotions is almost unbelievable, at times.
If you want to live with the sheep it is not as hard as you may think. Yet, at the same time, it is. Give control of your finances to your wife, if she is good with money. Then pay off an allowance. We are still capable of loving our children.
Just remember what you are. It can comfort you at times. To reach happiness you must understand your purpose. We are the wolves, not sheep. God put us here to keep the sheep in order. If the sheep get out of hand they can do horrible things. Find the sick sheep and break their twisted ego. Purify their soul.