I think you need to realize that the changes on this forum isn't some sort of task that we burden you with. you clearly enjoy it, maybe in the future instead of looking for verification from others you should take pride in the work you do by yourself. I'm not only speaking for myself here, but we do appreciate the work you put into the forum. keep at it Luna! ^.^
by CainI think you need to realize that the changes on this forum isn't some sort of task that we burden you with. you clearly enjoy it, maybe in the future instead of looking for verification from others you should take pride in the work you do by yourself. I'm not only speaking for myself here, but we do appreciate the work you put into the forum. keep at it Luna! ^.^
you cannot undersatnd me Cain.. as a developer, i see everything from such a different perspective than you guys. it's like... you know we all come to this forum for different reasons, but i have like.. this entire other agenda that makes my purpose here... much less clear, and also you guys are right.. because of the emotional envolvement i have invested in this place, i really take everyone's oppinion clear. how can i feel any measure of success and happiness from haveing such a successful forum when it's members feel so ill toward me? like.. it's one thing to not be known.. it's another to be blatently disliked on that forum.
also, it's not really that everyone dislikes me. it's that the people who DONT are much much louder, and so it drowns out eveyone and really makes it seem as if the entire forum hates me. in my mind, if one person dislikes me, they have a reason, and that means it is possible in our global "single" consciuosness that under certain circumstances, i will be disliked by that consciuosness-- provided they have the same information as the other.
i understand the social dynamic of it, and i often overestimate how much people actually care, and that leads me to over react. you know, it's certainly a mental flaw that i've discovered about myself, and i guess the question is now.. how can i change things to patch this flaw..
umm.. i haven't really come up with a solution. all i can think of is to distsance myself from the forum, and to respect the oppinions of the members less. i have to become more dissasociated.. it's the only option. this menas that i cannot really participate as much as i'd like in the forum.
that being said, i enjoy getting feedback. i enjoy the feeling affirmation that what i'm doing matters, and that people are pleased with it, and most importantly, that it has value, because i really want to help the world, and i can't do that unless i am successful in business, and i only have so many years to accomplish these goals, so i would like to be as efficient as possible in my ability to produce quality work that everyone enjoys.
so why would i leave you guys out of that? why would i sit alone behind my computer working on something that noone has given me ANY evidence for that this is actually a good idea, and not me dissilusioning myself based on my unique and rare perspective that let's face it, others might not completely be able to relate to.
anyway, i actually came to this thread to post a new song that really gets me thinking.. it has a great melady too. umm, it talks about god, and i personally cringe when i hear the word god, but this song is a great exception. 
we all have insecurities i guess