My father been said I need Jesus so he took me to church and let the water wash over my Caesar.
The preacher said we need leaders.
Right then my body got still like a paraplegic.
Dear SAU: I went through an abortion against my wishes when I wanted the baby going into the pregnancy, but my bf at the time felt guilty (for agreeing to this to cover up for cheating), and threatened suicide. Had I known I was going to be blamed, I should have let him kill himself, if he was really going to. Instead I gave in, believing I was the one who made this mistake and should do this to prevent from imposing on others. To this day I am still seen as choosing to abort when I was bullied and coerced until I felt the baby's spirit leave my body where it was already dead to me before the abortion. So at that point it was to remove the baby that was no longer alive, the psychological pressure had killed the will to live. It was the most traumatic experience, and I believe part of the reason I cannot fully control my empathetic experiences is because it tore some kind of hole in my soul. I can protect myself spiritually from what enters my consciousness, but cannot help the fact that I have this uncontrolled opening or tear in my consciousness where I connect with things outside the present reality. It is healed but still open.
I'm sorry you went through this. And glad that you are in a better place. take care!
To be a leader, to be chief of all is to be servant of all.
Have you ever gone through a spiritual cleansing where you felt you were being gutted inside out, and dying of everything you ever were, before coming back a new person reborn without any previous conditions or attachments?
Sorry if my posts are too long. I don't type txt/lol language very well. I know how to say ROTFL and WTF and that's about it.
by Turncoat"I told my parents, they reacted much as I thought they would. Me. Me. Me. I'm not ready to be a grandparent. What am I going to do?"
Was it their likelihood to respond to you that way that led to your possible sadism/munchausen comorbidity?
How's the "online" friend scenario?
oh it's still going on and on and on. hehe
I've been having difficulty answering this. It's always terrible experiences that change us the most. I've had many, and for some reason I don't want to give any of them the title. One thing for sure, the most life changing series of events for me, there is always a woman floating around in the background somewhere, usually feeding off my soul.
at 18 you shoulda learned to keep your fuckin legs shut ya lazy no job whore... you're the problem with america ... in debt, uneducated, unemployed, over population, too young to raise a kid... fucking idiot... /rant
Glad it worked out for ya. :) Just hope your kid doesn't turn out as big a failure as you.