Understanding the fact, that other people's emotions are stronger than mine.
Happened about the time I was 4 years old.
Still haven't caught up.
For some reason ladies are still delighted at the prospect of having a seeming of being able to fix it.
Wild animals can not be broken.
They can only be befriended and shown the way in which they can approach other people in a friendlier manner.
there are so many, hard to say which was most defining...
Ive seen people die in combat, i nearly died in a wreck, i watched close relatives deteriorate mentally and saw the aftermath it left in a family, i've told soldiers families thier son died in combat, i've been through survival courses that tought me what i was made of... i dont know that theyve made me stronger... but i know i appreciate the life i have and who i've become...
It is not a book.
It is an arrangement of empty pages to be filled with phrases that make a meaning to yourself only...
There is only one rule, by which all other rules abide.
I think you're clever enough to discern the meaning behind this obscure BS.
by emilynghiemWhat is the most crucifying or lifechanging experience you had? Which either killed you or made you stronger, defined you, or mde you a different person?
I was 18, living with my "parents" (I'm adopted) and found out I was pregnant. With twins. There was only one heartbeat. The one that had a heartbeat likely had some serious medical issues. The heartbeat for that child was way too slow. I was only 9 weeks at the time. I told my parents, they reacted much as I thought they would. Me. Me. Me. I'm not ready to be a grandparent. What am I going to do? And on and on. 2 days later, I'm still struggling to wrap my mind around this situation, figure out what I want to do. I was forbidden from contacting the father. My parents sat me down and told me that I was to have an abortion. If I didn't agree, well, there's the door. As in RIGHT FUCKING NOW. Not a week from now. Right now. I was 18 with no job, no money, no nothing. What choice did I realistically have? I did it under duress on July 7. I attempted suicide 2 weeks after the abortion (a week after I told them). I would have died if my mother hadn't gotten sick and come home early. I was a half an hour away from being dead. I spent 2 weeks in ICU and 2 weeks in the hospital's psych ward and a month in an inpatient residential facility. A month later I left home with someone I'd met in the hospital. I drove with him from CT to as far as we could go on the east coast and still be in the US. Key West. My son was born April of the next year.
That event shaped me more than anyone could possibly know. It made me stronger, more hateful, shaped me, defined me.
"I told my parents, they reacted much as I thought they would. Me. Me. Me. I'm not ready to be a grandparent. What am I going to do?"
Was it their likelihood to respond to you that way that led to your possible sadism/munchausen comorbidity? 
How's the "online" friend scenario?
Hmm, since birth. Growing up without a father, changed me. I don't think in a good way.
Oh and now, being isolated is freshening my mind. I am learning from it. But to be honest, I feel like I'm going crazy. Even before this isolation I was constantly moving, so I never had time to make "real life" friends.
Yes, I find that Life puts me in 'time out' away from anyone else when I need to sort things out on my own. sometimes it is better NOT to have friends or distractions during certain periods in life. Even depression can serve as a 'time out' for the mind to slow down and focus internally to clean out house, and happens for a reason.