Well, as long as you weren't planning on being in said car as it jumped into the river, that's good I guess.
Dear J: Messiah is right. The addiction overpowers regular free will so that's why it's something you can't simply will away or wish away. I don't want you to be in danger. Those dealers are not your friends. Best to distance yourself from anyone with that negative energy that would keep you stuck there. But easier said than done. Is there a doctor you trust to oversee your process of getting yourself detoxed? Once you make the commitment, more positive people and energy will come into your life to make it easier. Because the process is tough, you'll need full support and you deserve that! Be good and kind to yourself, and more good things will follow.