My favorite song in a while!
No, he never experienced love either.
What he's trying to say is he gave up on love and happiness before it went too serious, I guess.
I've been there too, where I don't even like love or happiness.
I just like making people hurt and cry so bad that it makes them want to die and kill themselves..
Yeah.. the sadistic sociopath.
And laugh while doing it (imo the most cruel part)