Hi everyone,
So since I've arrived at home in USA, I've purchased a ps3, and basicly memorized all the maps in COD Black Ops 2 and dare I say I'm likely in the top 10% in terms of skill mostly because casual users play, and I've been playing like 6 hours a day!
I'm getting really bored of it though, and as always, I find myself again at a point where I ask myself what exactly am I doing with my life.
Since leaving China, I have two clients. One client promised 20% of sales and a couple hundred dollars, and another promises about a hundred dollars a month, and 1500 cash for a website. We're also working on a major update for this forum, and now that FFXIV will be launching in a month, I've begun the planning stages for what we hope to be a great FFXIV linkshell community tool.
I can't help but think, though, that what I'm doing is so small. I don't want to work for a couple thousand dollars a project, rather I want to quickly get to a point where I have enough available capital to finance projects that will have great and positive impacts on the world.
The problem I have is that all I have is the thoughts in my head. I have ideas, and I know they are possible, but it's not as if I can pay an engineer to create me a prototype for some of the devices I'd like our company to someday create.
So it seems I'm stuck. All I can see as realistic is continuing in our work creating successful websites, and try to build our portfolio.
It really depresses me. I feel like I'm moving foward too slowly. I believe that the environment for good, creative software developers is coming up on near perfect as Google Glass gains traction, and as our homes begin becoming computerized, but how do I build a prototype that can interface with standard home heating and electrical systems, or a tablet that can be interfaced with through changes in electric charges?
I feel like I'd have to go get a degree in electrical engineering and do it all myself, and I really don't want to do that. :(
At the rate I'm going, I'll end up not even making a dent on the world. I'm sure we can have a nice company and live a good life, but it's not enough if I want to accomplish my dreams.
What do you guys think? Any suggestions?
Long Live Luna!!