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 I don't like being analyzed but fine early 20 something.

I don't think I'm feeling sorry for myself but why do you think I am?

by tesseract

 I'm really messed up but nobody expects me not to be.

 This says "I'm fucked up but I've had a shitty time so it's kind of a given that I'm going to be that way".
 

 And you do like being analyzed beccause you keep asking for insight on yourself.

 I just meant that nobody I know has their life together yet so I can hide it better.

So what do you think maturity is and why am I immature?

 I like answers when I want to know something but I don't like when someone else asks.

Psychopaths are best suited to breed with borderlines in order to create little monsters, that can change humanity for the better.

 That's fucked up.  What if it balanced out and the kid ended up normal, and had to deal with having asshole parents?

Does anyone actually have or want kids?

 I have kids, and I want them/ love them very much.
And you are a stupid little twat.

Not that's not what you meant. You've been trying to pull pity from your very first post. You'd be better suited posting at LoveFraud. You have contradicted yourself constantly and figuratively spat in the face of good advice. A diagnosis of a personality disorder is not a crutch for you to lean on. It's a window as to what you need to work on or be aware of on a daily basis.

Your lack of maturity shows with your inconsistency as well as the romantic way you look at a relationship with a sociopath. There's a reason Silk made a comment about Twilight. Do you think he can just bite you and turn you into a sociopath as well? Wouldn't that just make everything happily ever after. "Oh but I can suffer for him", then do it and stop talking about it or don't and move on. This is your life, not a romance novel.

 I'm not looking for pity.  My first post I was literally obsessing over making a guy like me, and I got the advice that he doesn't care and that I shouldn't do that, so I'm not.  I can't make my feelings change, I can only change what I do about them.  I haven't called him, he hasn't called me.

I'm not trying to convince you to see it the way I do, because I agree that it's fucked up and immature.  I just don't understand why I'm supposed to hate it.  Maybe someday I'll look back and hate it.  I don't right now.  You can think that's stupid if you want.

Honestly though can you give me a reason why I should start to dislike someone who hasn't changed at all?  Like, I had an awesome friend, and we had sex, and he was everything he ever said he was, but now I'm hurt so I should hate him?  I really don't understand that. 

I'm sorry for being inconsistent but everything I've written is what I was thinking at the time.