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I'm not sure what that means exactly, but I suspect you're trying to relate it to my father's suicide again.

I started having homicidal thoughts from a very young age. They didn't turn into regular fantasies until my mid teens.

I think my obsession with murder has more to do with what I witnessed and experienced while growing up, than my father's death.

I lived through violence and abuse for 17 years. The first 17 years of my life.

by Thrill Kill

I'm not sure what that means exactly, but I suspect you're trying to relate it to my father's suicide again.

I started having homicidal thoughts from a very young age. They didn't turn into regular fantasies until my mid teens.

I think my obsession with murder has more to do with what I witnessed and experienced while growing up, than my father's death.

I lived through violence and abuse for 17 years.

 OK,  I understand.  Perhaps you have owned violence,  and transformed it into a power.  Sorry, it is my natural inclination to try and analyze things.

 I do own it and and it is power. Like I've said numerous times before, if you're not the predator in this jungle, you're the prey.

I am the predator.

by Thrill Kill

 I do own it and and it is power. Like I've said numerous times before, if you're not the predator in this jungle, you're the prey.

I am the predator.

 Seen from within the purview of what you experienced,  this makes a great deal of sense. 

God, you are so full of angst. Your father had good reason to end his life.

Your ideal self is a predator, your real self is the prey, locked inside. This is your only outlet to respectfully gain attention for your deluded ideal self. I expect you to counter this in any way.

Your delusion is your own battle.

by Thrill Kill

 I am the predator.

 uuuuhhhh, scary... 

reminds me of a scene from "Almost Famous":

Penny: You're too sweet for rock and roll.
William: Sweet? Where do you get off? Where do you get sweet? I am dark and mysterious, and pissed off! And I could be very dangerous to all of you! You should know that about me... I am the enemy!

 Beautiful.

 My father had good reason to end his life?

Maybe he did. Who knows...

I was only about 3 years old when he committed suicide, so please, tell me how I contributed to his death.

That should be an interesting story.