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 She was diagnosed schizophrenic when she was 20 I believe. I think back then, they easily mistook dilusional finatisism for hallucinations. It is quite obvious to me now that both of my parents are severely personality disordered. Together, they were like a pair of cult leaders.

Do you still see your mother?

Did you grow up with them? I moved full-time to my father eventually because I couldn't stand it.

Yeah, once a month or every other month. And at Christmas and birthdays. She's better now, and I think she's on medication.

 No. My father and his mother raised me. My mother abandoned all but one of her kids, when I was two. My father divorced her and took full custody. I saw her about every 3 years of my life, and maybe received a letter or two per year. Once in a great while she would call. 

I got to finally live with her when I was 13. The school year was as much as she could stand me near her, then she kicked me out.

I see her once every few months. I don't speak to my father at all, and have not for 7 years now.

What is your father like?

Why don't you speak to him?

My father is completely normal, and they got divorced before my mother got into any psychotic episodes. She's always been a little odd (believing in New Age etc.) but I remember her as normal when I was little, albeit a bit controlling.

 It's good that you have one normal parent. You are close to him?

My father is a child rapist, con artist, and sadistic narcissist. 

Yes, I am. I'm close to most of his side of the family (uncles, aunts, cousins etc.). They all live relatively close.

I think I've read you describing him before, actually. I can understand why you want to stay away from him.

Last year I got to meet up with some first cousins on my mother's side, that I hadn't seen in 20 plus years. They are all missionaries. I expected to feel judged by them, and like they would preach at me the whole time I was there... but they were very cool, and I had a lot of fun.

I did have a strange little insident though. My cousin's husband asked me which one of "the sisters" I was, and after I told him my name, he threw his arms around me, giving me a great bear hug. I could see 14 people staring at me, and because he made such intimate contact with me, something really bizzarre happened. 

I shifted. I've never felt my personality slip away, and get replaced by another. I was reduced to a four year old child, and reacted the same as I would have at that age. I pushed him off me, and ran to hide behind my mother. I could see how weirded out everyone was by it, but I couldn't snap back. My eldest sister made it worse by calling attention to it.

Needless to say, I haven't tried going back out to visit them. They are all strangers to me... but I'm very curious now. Why that happened. I may try to go there for over the holiday season. See what happens.

 Tough childhood there Inky.

 Inquirer: Do you consider yourself a confident person? 

I do consider myself a confident person, but I have a habit of appearing timid in spite of that. I was a little shy when I was younger, and I guess that behavior is still stuck in me. I also found it easier/smarter to fold every possible argument that cropped up with my mother, so that might have something to do with it. That being said, I don't generally let myself get pushed around.

@Edvard - Extremely. How was yours?