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by smkovalinsky

 

 What if you asked someone to watch your daughter while you were away for a couple of days,  and they killed her?  Would not that strike you as evil?  I'm not being snarky;  really wondering how you would feel,  as you must love your daughter,  and I cannot imagine the words have no meaning to you....you're a mother. 

 Being a mother is instinctual. I don't need to feel love to be able to feed and clothe my daughter. I don't need to feel love for her in order to protect what's mine.

With that said, I do tell my daughter I love her because that's what's expected of me. And it makes her more compliant and easier to control when she believes she's loved.

I know a child can be raised without love because I was raised without it. I never experienced that whole bonding thing that is supposed to happen between mother and child. My mother says it's because I've always been cold towards her. My mother is more like an aquaintance to me than anything else. She's just another person that exists in my life.

I would not think it was evil if someone killed my daughter. I would see it for what it is - an action. Nothing more.

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by wilful

 2) This answer would be silly to post.

 I don't see why it would be silly to post at all. I doubt the police are going to come knocking on your door just because you confessed to a crime online. If you don't give specific details, then as far as anyone knows, you could be lying.

Do you think the police will be willing to spend money and manpower to investigate a crime with no details that someone online just happened to have mentioned committing?

Wouldn't the police need something to investigate other than simply the name of the crime that was committed?

by Thrill Kill

 

by smkovalinsky

 

 What if you asked someone to watch your daughter while you were away for a couple of days,  and they killed her?  Would not that strike you as evil?  I'm not being snarky;  really wondering how you would feel,  as you must love your daughter,  and I cannot imagine the words have no meaning to you....you're a mother. 

 Being a mother is instinctual. I don't need to feel love to be able to feed and clothe my daughter. I don't need to feel love for her in order to protect what's mine.

With that said, I do tell my daughter I love her because that's what's expected of me. And it makes her more compliant and easier to control when she believes she's loved.

I know a child can be raised without love because I was raised without it. I never experienced that whole bonding thing that is supposed to happen between mother and child. My mother says it's because I've always been cold towards her. My mother is more like an aquaintance to me than anything else. She's just another person that exists in my life.

I would not think it was evil if someone killed my daughter. I would see it for what it is - an action. Nothing more.

 I don't know if you read ME Thomas' book (Professor Lund) ,  but it sounds like the same thing happened to you,  as happened to her:  You learned very early not to trust love, and you lost interest in emotions,  and connecting with others.  But if you heard right now your daughter was dead, would you cry?  And another thing:  You say your Dad committed suicide.  Do you ever feel that you may be living out some of his killing fantasies?  (as Wilhelm says,  "He receives in his thoughts the dead father.")

 TK is not just antisocial- she is also schizoid. Am I right about that, Demon? Do you know anything about Schizoid Personality Disorder?

Yes, I did learn very early on that you can't trust love. It doesn't hold much value when those who say it turn around and beat you down afterwards.

I have no idea how I would feel if my daughter died. I've contemplated how I would feel. I've imagined her dying in all kinds of different ways, yet I never feel anything.

When she was about 6 months old, she almost choked to death on her own vomit. I was living with my mother at the time and she called the ambulance. The only emotion I remember feeling, while at the hospital, was annoyance when my mother told me I should stay at the hospital with my daughter for the night. I didn't want to stay. I wanted to go home so I could sleep in my own bed.

As for my father... I'm not sure what you mean by his killing fantasies. Do you mean that his death may have been what sparked my own homicidal fantasies?

If that's what you meant, well, I honestly hadn't considered that before. I think my father's death certainly plays a role in how I view suicide and those who commit it, but I was having homicidal thoughts before I even know what had happened to my father.

by Silkthread

 TK is not just antisocial- she is also schizoid. Am I right about that, Demon? Do you know anything about Schizoid Personality Disorder?

 Yes, I am both schizoid and antisocial.

I've done some reading on schizoid personality disorder.

by Thrill Kill

Yes, I did learn very early on that you can't trust love. It doesn't hold much value when those who say it turn around and beat you down afterwards.

I have no idea how I would feel if my daughter died. I've contemplated how I would feel. I've imagined her dying in all kinds of different ways, yet I never feel anything.

When she was about 6 months old, she almost choked to death on her own vomit. I was living with my mother at the time and she called the ambulance. The only emotion I remember feeling, while at the hospital, was annoyance when my mother told me I should stay at the hospital with my daughter for the night.

As for my father... I'm not sure what you mean by his killing fantasies. Do you mean that his death may have been what sparked my own homicidal fantasies?

If that's what you meant, well, I honestly hadn't considered that before. I think my father's death certainly plays a role in how I view suicide and those who commit it, but I was having homicidal thoughts before I even know what had happened to my father.

 Please don't take this the wrong way,  and you will probably hate me for saying this,  but I truly believe something happened to you,  and that you never had a profound enough therapist to unlock the key which holds your mystery.  

As for your father:  He may have killed himself because he was becoming a serial killer:  Now the daughter is living out his thoughts.  Do not dismiss it without considering it;  Jung knew several cases where the child's obsession is from the thoughts of the parent. 

My mother told me that I took after my father, in more than just looks (I do look more like him and nothing at all like my mother). According to her, I take after him in attitude as well.

Apparently, he could be arrogant and cocky, but my mother said nothing about him being a serial killer, lol. I'm pretty sure he was just a little mentally unstable. He was insitutionalized before he killed himself.

Sorry, I meant for the question about knowing anything about that disorder, to go to Susan.