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 Because I'm a well trained dog. And so is Space, he just doesn't see it. If he did- he wouldn't continue to show his loyalty to the gaslighting technique that was used to set me off on this very forum, in front of everyone, so that I could then be made out to be this crazy "Borderline" bitch, and the gaslighter come off looking like one who made the mistake of falling for another lunatic.

I'm so well trained that I still haven't bothered to set the record straight, so that it can't be used as something that triggers me.

What Edvard did was the perfect example of what was done to me on this forum. It's a little unsettling to say the least. And even though I know it's gaslighting, it still works on me. Not because I care if that is what Edvard believes or Space believes to be true... or even because I doubt the truth- but because the one person I trusted not to do something like that to me... especially in public... did.

And everytime he goes after me, telling me that I'm this horrid person who verbally mamed the one who loved me and submitted to all my wishes... it's like she's still kicking me in the face.

 Turncoat, I really want to thank you for your posts on this thread. They really helped to shed some light on a bigger picture that I still couldn't fully see. I needed that. Now maybe I can stop obsessing over it, blaming myself, and move on.

It can be nice to see someone else has been there, especially for this sort of thing. While it's happening it's easy to feel alone.

 Well- because that's the beauty of the design. It's easier to slip away into darkness when you're isolated and disoriented. 

by Turncoat

Come to think about it, you asking me to raise my awareness is kind of funny, considering who you are and how people see you here.

 Like anyone else, no one sees me the same.

by anastacia

 

How do you view yourself in terms of your own ego?

I'm very self conscious of the ego, I pay mind to it with in everything I say or do.There is no escaping them. I say them cause when one ego is crushed, another one sets in to take it's place.

In my case, I'm always looking forward to the next oppertunity for change, and I strive for change for the better. Pride does come into play, and I think it's nessary to have before it's time to let pride itself go.

As a reference, it is true that people do not like the truth very much. People tend to have a higher perception of themselves. I for one utalize the truth to the best of my ability, falsehoods have no substance to me, and it's for this reason, I think there are those who think of me as an ego maniac.

And I agree with ME Thomas, that if she is "outed",  she will lose her Professorship,  as would be fitting and proper. 

She did, didn't she?

 Thankyou Mrs black dahlia.

I used to have those in my garden.