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Were you actually planning to hurt him?

 So you wrapped a chain around his neck.  To choke him?  To cut his head off?  You wanted to walk him around like a dog?

He told me he could handle anything...

I got a little too excited when he began to struggle and tried to fight me off him, so I just kept going. At first, it was just funny to me when he finally got loose and started rushing to put his clothes on. I thought he was being such a baby about it. Figured he would get over it. I wasn't thinking in terms of: This guy could call the cops on me and make it out like I tried to kill him. My brain is too broken to think like that until long after It's already over.l

by Alterego

Were you actually planning to hurt him?

 Not at first.

 She couldn't have wrapped it around his neck if it was an unexpected maneuver. She would have had to quickly retrieve it from under the pillow, and press it down across his neck while she straddled him, exerting her weight forward, and possibly, suddenly pinning his chest down with her knee....

:P

 I defer to your experience.  XD

Yeah, you took it too far, and it freaked him out. Do you think you would have had enough control to stop at the right time if he had remained passive?

 I wouldn't have gotten so excited if he had remained passive. His fear was the greater part of the thrill for me. If it's all show- all role play- it's just not as good.

But it wasn't my intension to have him remain frightened. I wasn't trying to abuse him on purpose. It just got away from me. 

You state that you struggled with him. There is something about a combative dynamic, in particular, that really causes the visceral to surface. It can trigger a vicious, feral reaction. And for those of us lacking in empathy, it can be sometimes be difficult to gauge when too much is really too much.