Initially I said physical pleasure, but it's more psychological, than physical.
I don't really view it as positive or negative. But for arguements sake, let's say it is positive.
so murder makes you feel powerful and in control? okay.. i can see how that might make you feel that way..
i feel like we're going around in circles of you dancing around saying "happiness", "emotion", and "associate positively" .
tell me this, what is it that makes you pursue the feeling of being powerful and in control? also, if you like this feeling so much, why did you choose to be a stay at home mom? you don't really provide yourself many outlets to pursue your interests~
Power and control is like a drug. Once you get a taste of it, you want more of it.
I'm not sure what being a stay at home mum has to do with anything. My interest in murder doesn't affect my home life.
If I were a serial killer, I would be no different than, say, BTK. He murdered people and he had a family. His homicidal activities were kept separate from his active role as father and husband.