Well, from time to time I will take a stab at getting some. Raven and Ellicit are off limits, Ellicit I must not even toy with cause it does more damage than good, so for that reason I respectfully keep a distance. My open heart for Raven I think is healthy. It's rewarding when we get along cause of her type of persona. It's as though the universe is at peace. Then there's Maria. Like the other two mentioned, Maria has said and done things that moved me, but she'd end up killing me, like the black widow. When she's sweet, I find her very alluring, so I dream of her too. You're all married and shit, but there's a place for you in my heart and mind too, like the rest, there are road blocks that prevent me from making it to first base. Raven and Ellicit are a pair, Maria is obsessed with Gia, though I think of you as a flirt buddy, you're unavailable and claim not to think of me so etc. To be honest, I have something to say about all the women here. If it wern't for you all, I wouldn't stick around. I have the nervous system of a man, cause I am one, so every now and then I turn bad.
Of course we are fine. Her and I are just about equally damaged. We both go blank when even just a week of absense between us, goes by. It's been about 2 months now. So, it's already like a very distant memory. I think being older and having far less ego involved in my relationships, has only caused me to be more detached than ever before. At least when I was younger, it seemed like I cared because my ego could be bruised, or I felt some kind of ownership. Not anymore...
Two months. That was around the time you tried to slam me on the hood of a car, then I did a reversal and you ended up crashing through the windshield, then you stopped talking to me :[ ... Must have happened after that time, though it had nothing to do with me, I saw you were moody.
I have a very fragmented mind. Poor health and stress triggers more fragmentation. Two months ago was when I first ended up in the hospital with heart issues. I could never be diagnosed with DID because I don't have whole seperate personalities with names all their own. However... their are subtle switches, time loss, and anyone who has been close enough to me on a regular basis has at one time or other, told me they sometimes feel like they are suddenly speaking to someone else.
Elicit brought it up several times.
I just ride the ride. Not much else I can do about it.
You are very cool these days, I do pull your leg often, but I was serious when I said you scare me. But not these days. Maybe the other version of you was enraged ? Anger can cause complications with vital organs, especially the heart. Eat lots of greens, and other veggies, but especially the greens. Cut out sugar too. Sugar is proven to be mentally unhealthy too.
Hahaha!
No offense, Space- but I don't really give a fuck if I scare people here. More than likely you've written a bunch of fiction about me in your head based on some of the bullshit Ell pulled out of her ass back when we had our first conflict on the forum. So your judjment of me is tainted and irrelivant. You are too easily swayed in one direction or another, and you take too much at face value.
Again... no offense.