Sociopath Community

 And the ego is as a...

I'm giong to start sounding bitter pretty soon.

You're lying to yourself. How can you possibly say that he's a sociopath and yet see his stare as "fire in his eyes". That romantic, sappy, delusional thihnking is going to get you hurt so badly in the end. By reading this it sounds like you've already made up your mind so no one is going to be able to sway you. You have an opportunity most people don't get; you know in advance. What you do with that information is up to you but if you know this about him, how do you know that his affection and character are genuine and not a ruse?

 I say stay away and find an average guy. This man sounds like he is going to her you one day.

This place changed you quickly, at least in tone. You seemed so lost when you made your first thread.

On topic: "Unlock my gate"? ;)

Martial arts is a wonderful endeavor. Persuing self defense does not make you "off".

Related to this guy, it's easy to put a label on the person when it could be from a range of things. I mean my case is closer to Blunted Affect for example.

 Why does he suspect he is a sociopath? 

Ha! I'd say more overwhelmed than lost but yes my tone is different because she needs to understand the seriousness of what she's dealing with (just like the revenge post). The fact that this person has an idea in advance and yet is romanticizing the situation bothers me. My relationship was screwed up, I knew it the whole time, but I didn't know he was a socio/narc/whatever.

And Jay is right, also. They are either drawn to it because the dangerousness excites them or the idea that they can change this person is appealing.

So you're doing okay then? Glad to hear it.

The humbler types tend to be more prone to beating themselves up instead of taking it out on the aggressor. Seeing your story side by side with quite a few lately I'd argue's showing you to come out better off.

Edit: Granted, I can't see every dimension of these scenarios. Largely basing on assumption.

 Thank you, I'm doing ok. I still miss him and I don't know how much if it I truly liked but in the end I knew something wasn't quite right yet stayed. I was diagnosed with a tumor while we were together. If it hadn't ended when it did I doubt I would have made it out alive. Not being dramatic, it's just the truth.

According to him, ever since he was a kid, he's been unphazed by violence and things that would scare most people. He would think about these things with thought-provoking interest, but emotional apathy. He was a juvenile delinquent simply because of his mischievous need for thrill, but got away with what he did most of the time, because he was so clever. To this day, he will tell you that he just doesn't care about humanity in general. His attitude is evidence of this. However, he does care about certain people who he chooses to and he would do anything for those people. He still has that feisty-side, but he's matured and learned to use logic and common sense keep in in control most of the time. He is very ambitious and wants to succeed. Getting in trouble is counter-productive.  

I'm not sure what to make of it. I've read from some sources that say sociopaths are incapable of emotion at all, but that's not true here. He definitely experiences anger. He definitely likes laughter and fun. He definitely cares about certain things. It's not like he's a robot or something. However, he does fit the mold of most any online (which I know is not reliable) description of a sociopath. I've always wondered if his lack of fear or insecurity isn't what's helped him in life to rise beyond where the average person might fall.