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Coming Out.

I don't ring all the bells, that's true enough. . My first diagnosis was in the military. I was young and stupid and I thought I had some guarantee of confidentiality. I thought he was supposed to help me, not merely evaluate me. I answered all questions honestly, including one that I still kick myself for answering at all, much less the way I did. Up until that point, I had been rated as an outstanding performer, so I talked my way into getting a second opinion. At the time, I felt like I was Macchiavelli himself, but in hindsight, I think that my CO just didn't want to lose a good soldier on the word of some major he didn't even know. 

Later, when I was older and more willing to be honest with myself, I saw two civilian psychatrists because I wanted to be sure. Over four months, I was honest with them in ways that are impossible for me in regular life. I even told them about each other. I don't agree with the details of their diagnoses, but I'm willing to accept the broad strokes as fact. That was about 13 years ago. Self-awareness has made my life less difficult. I take the time to turn things over in my head before I let them out of my mouth. I moved to a new city and stopped lying about myself to make myself look better. It never really worked anyway. I don't borrow money to avoid defaulting on debt just because I don't like the idea of paying for something I already have. You get the idea. Where I can, I modify my behavior to suit expected norms. Things I can't change, I mostly just try to avoid. That's probably not healthy, but I'm getting by. Luckily, most of the stupid mistakes of my youth didn't stick me with a criminal record (it's only illegal if you get caught, right?)

Please don't misread my tone here. I'm not whining, exactly. I'm more or less fine with the way I live my life now. I just see articles like "10 Ways to Tell if Your Boyfriend is a Sociopath" and literally every depiction in a TV show or movie and I think why bother. Then I remember: Because I don't believe in Hell, but I do believe in prison. I've seen it and I never want to go there.

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 "Because I don't believe in Hell, but I do believe in prison. I've seen it and I never want to go there." 

good incentive isnt it!

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 I came out as an asshole. It was refreshing, like a menthol on a winter's morning.

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 "Coming Out" sounds like a horrible idea.  I like being outside I'm not going back in there.

 

If you hold back because of the consequences, isn't that not the same as holding back because of the morality?  It doesn't matter if its "right" or "wrong."  So the moral compass is missing a needle.  We all know cause and effect.  That's good enough.

 

I'm sideing with Lycan on this one, ASPD it is.

 

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 Part of me wants to make up some BS.  Part of me wants to tell you why.

 

The other part of me wants to move this forum to something more secure.  lol.

 

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 Half the fun is the fact that this forum is unmoderated , and requires ones wits to contain their bullshit if they dont wish to be caught out.

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I just spent the past 20 minutes retyping what I want to say and going through how I want to be perceived.

 

That's the truth I swear.

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 there are two routes as I see it.

The first, you are honest as you want to be, whilst withholding enough info that would identify you, you would perhaps cop some ridicule, (character building and a lesson by itself)

The second ...you invent a persona and stick with it. To do that you must have an impeccable memory, and a good head for nuance.

Sometimes its good just to throw down and see what hand gets dealt ;-)

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by TNP

 I came out as an asshole. It was refreshing, like a menthol on a winter's morning.

 I approve this message...

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 Stop using that font, it's not making you any cooler.

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