Yeah, pot is great. Just... when you smoke it, make sure to DO stuff. It's perfectly okay to get stoned and do your homework, or work on that college essay, or debug that error :D
You need to keep yourself aware of your goals. Whatever it is you want to accomplish, make sure you are setting that as a priority in life, and choose to base your own happiness on the accomplishment of that goal. Then just for the times you can't really make progress toward that goal, hang out with your family, or play video games, or smoke pot. But yeah, I know depression is annoying, but if you allow it to, it will push you to chase your dreams. Would you rather be a happy go lucky person who is always happy? What would they accomplish in life, they would be to happy to get any real thinking done!!
I've never been depressed. But pot is good for almost anything that ails you. It isn't even self-destructive if you moderate your consumption and choose a strain that will not incapacitate your creative and cognitive faculties. None of the active metabolites in marijuana are cytotoxic- which is not the case wherein alcohol is concerned. It is a phenomenal boredom killer. That is the primary reason I use it: to enhance my experience of things. I like being on edge, and having to navigate different challenges. It is very stimulating.
I can't set a goal, because along the way I change my mind, I don't have the will or commitment to keep up to it.
What I'm looking for is something to distract the mind, something you don't do on a daily basis.
Every now and then, if I do achieve a certain goal, I don't get any 'happier', the next minute it's all the same. My grandmother who I owe everything(literaly) told me a couple days back with tears in eyes she might die sooner because of something on brain, I spent the entire time faking emotions and thinking about what would be the most appropriate way to behave/say and comfort her to make the conversation go away, because I didn't feel comfortable with the discussion. I'm quite a self-centered blackhole, just looking for certain activities that might distract me for a bit. I did try a couple of things, but I always end up the same, hollow, disappointed and bored.
Maybe one day it'll all change just like I did in over a week.
I'll take your advice into a test and actualy DO something while smoking pot. I usualy end up playing video games or watching movies, let's change that.
Long Live Luna
Okay, so you say you dont have the will or commitment to do something, but I'd argue that you can easily create an envrionment for yourself that doesn't let you FORGET your goal.
I recommend you buy a dry erase board, and put it on your wall. Put the amount of money in your savings, and write your goals on it. Then write a to do list. You can put things like clean your room, do homework, mow the lawn, apply for college, whatever... Once it's on that board, you don't take it off until its complete.
This way, no matter how many times you forget, you always come home and see yourself staring you in the face TELLING you to get this done. You might ignore it now and then, but if you truely want to improve your future, you will remember it once in ahwile, and slowly begin to find yourself on a life path that you love and enjoy.