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If you've never experienced infatuation for anyone by now, then maybe you'll never. 

As for those relationships you envy, sometimes they aren't interested in one another and simply focus on other things but they don't kill the relationship, then later they are good to go. 

When it comes to sex long term, I can only speak from a man's perspective, and it's along the lines of putting out as opposed to taking in. By that I mean, make it about her pleasure first. Being you, I doubt that's ever the case as it's easy to see you don't care all that much if they enjoyed it as much as you did, then you might find sex with them is a lesser experience than masturbation.

I don't claim to have a solution for your case, you need a woman who can put up with your bullshit and is able to keep you in check and you must set a goal to make their experience with you is better and better, even when you're not as good as last time, you must persist and figure it out. Also there is no point in even trying to do this if you're not into her. To say the least, for you an open relationship is a good start. 

Maybe I am just Schizoid. I get in moods where I just want to be by myself and not talk to anybody. I can be in these moods for a very long time until I decide I want the stimulation associated with people. 

Slay said: 

Maybe I am just Schizoid. I get in moods where I just want to be by myself and not talk to anybody. I can be in these moods for a very long time until I decide I want the stimulation associated with people. 

 ......Smellay did you get your heart broken by another girl again lel

Slay said: 

I didn't lose interest in people so quickly. Would stop me from having to find new people all the time. There's no genuine drive to build a relationship with anyone outside material gain because sex with the same person more than once is not a driving force. Can't be bothered and when someone likes me I like to piss them off just so I can see a new side to them. 

So when I see people having genuine relationships were the people really enjoy and are fulfilled by each other and they have no issues being around each other for long periods of time it makes me wish I had the ability to enjoy something like that. 

I want some advice on how I could become more interested in people if I can't bond with them? What holds my interest is the personal gratification from controlling their behavior and emotions towards me and when that dissipates there's nothing holding my investment in the exchange.  

Everyone likes to piss off people they like.. There's something fun about that. Anyway, we're polar opposites, Slay. I'm that person with genuine relationships and genuine fulfilment. I've always been like that, especially with women, who seem to like me for whatever unfathomable reason.  Every relationship I've had I've been committed. But you're asking for a recipe..... There is none.

I'm going to go on a limb here and say you just haven't met the right one. Might sound corny.

oh don't worry guys Smellay has assured me that he will end up married one day LOL he's just pity playing dont fall for it

He is after all, always right alllll the time

When you meet interesting people, they become staple. Unless you lose interest. There's probably no way around that.

I always have a girlfriend! I get so many benefits from my girlfriend. It sounds like you don't want to be around people at all or you think about how you feel way too often bro!