PRAY
Break up with him. Marry the first person you meet after. It's the only way.
I think I know someone who did this
oh for fucks sake
I hope you don't suicide because shit seemed dark rn, you're intelligent and creative and you would do great if you'd stop obsessing about other people and how there has to be something wrong with you. If you legitimately need someone to talk to, I'm not your dude because I don't know how to process that shit but there is plenty people here that would be willing to—
On the offside to that this place is pretty negative at times and it's probably not helping you out much. Try to get in touch with some of your old friends and go out more. You have a habit of living in your head instead of in the present and it makes you miss out on a ton of stuff.
You live on the internet spending hours posting shit on a forum where nobody honestly gives a fuck. You waste your life, you don't deserve it. You are nothing, you do nothing. You break yourself because you don't desire to be anything and do anything realistic. When life gives you a simple challenge you cry. You always cry and bitch. Nobody fucking loves a crying bitch. Shut your whore mouth. The sympathy here is fake lip service cuz they don't wanna trigger you. Idgaf. You are a lazy entitled stupid bitch who does jack shit and therefore deserves to feel like shit.
Leave the internet for a year, eat heathy, and make real life friends.
You are your own enemy; and you don't deserve any sympathy.
If you actually offed yourself, a common reaction would prolly be "we told that stupid bitch to just go outside."
people would express their happiness with the lack of white noise in chat xd
I feel like I’m just not even alive anymore
like i stopped living a long ass time ago
and idk how to like interrupt that pattern of deadness from perpetuating and
How to get my liveliness back, getting back being alive you know
just stop being such a jealous bitch and constantly focusing on what u dont have. accept the fact that you're mediocre, not really a lesbian, not really a dug addict, and just an average garden variety spoiled suburban brat with nothing to offer the world. i promise it's the way forward.