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Being in touch with yourself


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It's really difficult to convey your emotions and thoughts to people.

Honestly, despite trying my best to be myself with you all.. I somehow end up putting the mask on anyway. Funny how that happens. I just want to be me. For once. I don't know how to convey that to you guys, or to anyone for that matter. Verbal and text-based communication are pretty limited, aren't they?

I could answer user's questions and explain what is important to me in life. But that doesn't really define me as a person, does it? And I guess it doesn't define you, either. I'd just end up being viewed as an intriguing book-writer, a stupid image I'd reinforce, because why not.

I guess I just want to get to know you guys better, behind the mask.

Honestly I haven't really struggled in life much, like probably you guys have. I can't say I had a very interesting upbringing. I grew up in a semi-rich family, hanging out with the kids in the poor neighborhoods. I didn't really need to work to get to where I am now. I didn't need to struggle in school and I didn't have any family issues.

I am actually quite normal. Just a normal person.

Honestly this is stupid.. why am I performing like this to you guys like a fucking clown. I really meant every word I said, but here I am posting this shit without even deleting it. It's pretty pathetic, isn't it? It's just that I can't help myself. I just have to put on a mask... It's a habit. Like an addiction. Or maybe I just like to deflect my inadequacies with humor.

Not much chance to transform this back to a normal topic now, is there....? I really don't feel like deleting that thing... It's so funny. I really laugh at my own jokes all the time. It'd be a waste of some good laugh... Or maybe I just really want attention because I'm lonely. Well, whatever it is, I'd still like to get to know you guys a bit better.

But really it's pretty difficult to get to know anyone these days isn't it?

last edit on 11/9/2019 12:10:27 AM
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Just narrate symptoms as they're happening in a naked way. 


It's really difficult to convey your emotions and thoughts to people.

Honestly, despite trying my best to be myself with you all.. I somehow end up putting the mask on anyway. Funny how that happens. I just want to be me. For once. I don't know how to convey that to you guys, or to anyone for that matter. Verbal and text-based communication are pretty limited, aren't they?

I could answer user's questions and explain what is important to me in life. But that doesn't really define me as a person, does it? And I guess it doesn't define you, either. I'd just end up being viewed as an intriguing book-writer, a stupid image I'd reinforce, because why not.

I guess I just want to get to know you guys better, behind the mask.

Honestly I haven't really struggled in life much, like probably you guys have. I can't say I had a very interesting upbringing. I grew up in a semi-rich family, hanging out with the kids in the poor neighborhoods. I didn't really need to work to get to where I am now. I didn't need to struggle in school and I didn't have any family issues.

I am actually quite normal. Just a normal person.

Honestly this is stupid.. why am I performing like this to you guys like a fucking clown. I really meant every word I said, but here I am posting this shit without even deleting it. It's pretty pathetic, isn't it? It's just that I can't help myself. I just have to put on a mask... It's a habit. Like an addiction. Or maybe I just like to deflect my inadequacies with humor.

Not much chance to transform this back to a normal topic now, is there....? I really don't feel like deleting that thing... It's so funny. I really laugh at my own jokes all the time. It'd be a waste of some good laugh... Or maybe I just really want attention because I'm lonely. Well, whatever it is, I'd still like to get to know you guys a bit better.

But really it's pretty difficult to get to know anyone these days isn't it?

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last edit on 11/9/2019 12:22:55 AM
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My therapist told me to get in touch with my inner child and I ended up molesting it

2:48Spatial Mind The guy was sticking his dick in an infants mouth, it was so fucking disturbing
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My therapist told me to get in touch with my inner child and I ended up molesting it

 hahahahahahaah

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Sigh.... It's already turned into a joke... Well, no use then. I guess that's just fate, or karma. I've done a lot of things I'm not proud of.

You people wouldn't understand.. You've never even seen how green the grass really is...

I don't know why everyone lives in the matrix.... Don't you know there's a whole new world out there that you've never experienced?

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Just narrate symptoms as they're happening in a naked way. 


You think?

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I hung out in the poor neighborhoods and I still do from time to time. It's more social. Something about it is more fun. 

I don't like being considered normal. 

I find the best way to find the self is to always seek transformation, and practice humility.

Saw a movie not too long ago, where someone found themselves when they were being cheered by a crowd over something they've done. I imagine something like that could seal the deal with how someone would identify themselves. Though I find it hard to imagine validation from others can shape us. Maybe it's a matter of how we like being seen by the majority.

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Kek

Why accomplish anything tangible in real life and make something of yourself when you can claim to be enlightened and out of the matrix on the internet

Im not a loser mom I have the 3rd eye vision!

2:48Spatial Mind The guy was sticking his dick in an infants mouth, it was so fucking disturbing
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Just narrate symptoms as they're happening in a naked way. 

You think?

The more you don't feel comfortable with it, the more it stands to be tested. 

These people will eat it up, and then you'll see if reality or yourself is the harsher critic and can go from there. You will from that gain what might not be the truth, but a melting pot of perceived truths, all which offer you a perspective on the words you've said within their own flavors of bias that can tell you that much more about yourself. 

This place can be a series of judgmental eyes, but that still offers you a set of eyes that aren't your own. This place also has reason to be more honest than otherwise when it comes to why they felt the need to say what they've said to you. If who you are is inauthentic though, all you'll see is how they feel about that inauthenticity. 

What they say isn't the answer, but it's clues and context towards the answers you're otherwise looking for. Figure out who they are and you'll have a mirror towards yourself. 

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last edit on 11/9/2019 2:20:15 AM
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Kek

Why accomplish anything tangible in real life and make something of yourself when you can claim to be enlightened and out of the matrix on the internet

Im not a loser mom I have the 3rd eye vision!

 hahahahahahahahahahah

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