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Cain said: 

He probably didn't even take acid. 

Either that or it could have been a shitty batch, or he might have robbed himself of a real experience with it by being glued to his phone or something. Environment is a lot of it. 

I guess we'll see based on if he does or doesn't answer questions. I mean, I've had a trip or two where I stuck to the browser with the lights off and it really felt like a lot of nothing. 

Turncoat said: 

Cain said: 

He probably didn't even take acid. 

Either that or it could have been a shitty batch, or he might have robbed himself of a real experience with it by being glued to his phone or something. Environment is a lot of it. 

I guess we'll see based on if he does or doesn't answer questions. I mean, I've had a trip or two where I stuck to the browser with the lights off and it really felt like a lot of nothing. 

Indeed. 

My first trip ever was spent inside a movie theater watching The Rind Rises which was very enjoyable because I developed a deep emotional connection with each scene and the animations were like moving water colors. I just though that's how the film was animated, I didn't know I was hallucinating until I left the dark movie theater and entered a lit hallway. 

Turncoat said: 

Cain said: 

He probably didn't even take acid. 

Either that or it could have been a shitty batch, or he might have robbed himself of a real experience with it by being glued to his phone or something. Environment is a lot of it. 

I guess we'll see based on if he does or doesn't answer questions. I mean, I've had a trip or two where I stuck to the browser with the lights off and it really felt like a lot of nothing. 

 Most of his report is about his experiences online, or lack of interaction online. 

His ego wont die because he was too busy on his phone.

I'm glad it was a bland experience for him. He couldn't handle a real trip . he is gonna dive on in maybe just a few times through his life. Or endure a tragedy. I only have one rule for people who should and shouldn't drop acid. He breaks my #1 rule, id never supply him

so basically lsd makes you almost like a normal person  

Cain bro, we get it, you know drugs, you have no ego, you are enlightened and all that stuff. You dont have to prove anyone anything just because youre short bro. Everyone has their problems, you dont have to go the extra length to demonstrate your worth. We appreciate you bro hugs

Turncoat said: 

Aizen said: 

1)I didn't hallucinate, and i wasn't tripping* at all. I was connected to reality and i knew exactly what was happening. In fact i would say that i was less distracted.

Did everything seem sharper instead of blurrier? Also how was your sleep the day before taking it, and how had your eating been? 

What were you up to during it, more than Discord right? A lot of what you can get out of psychadelics is based on not just you, but your environment. If you're on your cellphone the entire time you won't see the bigger pictures around it. 

With the right music the world can drip to it's tune for instance. 

2)I couldn't sleep for about 10-12 hours not sure, i think 10.

It's a 12 hour trip. Unlike a lot of substances this shit's about planning before you can't plan any longer. 

With two hits though you could probably still manage some semblance of plans though. 

3)After the claims of people who interacted with me in discord on lsd, i made more sense on lsd than i do in general.-I was more social and approachable. 

Did you check those logs the following day, and was it only typing or did you talk too? 

4)Emotions like anger and annoyance would come-and go much faster, in a much more easier-way to cope with them. 

You had anger on LSD? 

I've seen Shroom anger but not LSD. What was it like for you? 

5)Impulse was decreased. 

Makes sense. 

6)No matter what kind of abomination would start an argument with me with his ignorant stupidity, i wouldn't react, i would just move on and talk about something i like. Unlike what i do in general. 

How angry of a person are you without LSD? I still think it's weird that it'd permeate through your trip unless it's like... anger management status. 

7)Fallacies in personal relation ships were minimized, given how i was far less invensted in the interaction, than my notrmal self. 

Ego diminishment is kinda neat, yeah. 

-In general talking objectively, consuming the specific drug made me far more objective, and at some point it <<killed>> what we call ego, given how i didn't proceed with any interaction for the point of winning. 

How would you describe an ego death? 

I feel like you're grabbing that term and assuming you've had it, as it seems more like your sense of self was altered as opposed to absent. 

-Personal views:

1)It also made me more relaxed physically, and i was easier to rest somewhere-despite the inability to sleep. 

Yeah... I've microdosed before just to calm the fuck down. If you want to be more hyper I recommend a single tab paired with some caffeine. My experiences with it have me crash faster, but the euphoria and mindset are more excited. 

Mix it with ecstacy and you get an entirely unrelated experience. 

2)It called indifference, but not the fake one, the actual one, not the "idc about you-while you respond. The one that's actually indifference, i was uninterested in even opening dm's. 

Did you just spend your trip using Discord the entire time? 

You should be surrounding yourself with interesting smells and wondrous art, maybe even a movie or a cinematic game or something while you're still starting out. 

3)I can say this with absolute certainty, my bpd and pdp meltdowns, are far worse and trippy in terms of severity than this, in terms of intensity, this would take a 3/ meanwhile a severe bpd meltdown would take a 10.

That's how I feel about my schizo episodes. Shrooms feels similar but a lot calmer, while LSD is some weird Peter Pan shit. 

4)It didn't cause any panic at all either, despite the toxic environments i hang around into, or the trolls. 

Did you expect people online to scare you like that? 

Try having them next to you IRL while tripping hard, their *everything* is kinda deafening if they aren't otherwise chilling out. 

5)Music unlike what people say, seemed boring to me, unlike when i am sober who i am partially-addicted. 

What genres did you do? 

-It wasn't trippy or psychedelic, it was more of a relaxant and a stabilizer, but at the same time something that allowed you to enjoy intensity-of different types of things.- 

In the drug's defense you only did around two hits. 

1 hit: Like a strong dose of caffeine with some mild mania. 
2 hit: Relaxing with some mild increased sensitivities. Enhances media but it won't outright steal you from your spot. 
3 hit: Confusing, the mind loses what it's holding onto but remembers that it lost it on loop. 
4 hit: This and higher tends to be where things get more synesthetic and otherwise otherworldly for me. While I don't tend to hallucinate as much if at all on it (about as much as I might on a bad day), how it's taken and what it means changes, and one sense can drag others with it if it's pushed. 

After effects:

1)I feel quite apathetic but calm, not so reactive or concerned anymore. Even now. Like i lost an amplifier of stimulation so now i feel calmer, which in my case is beneficial given how i am full of hate all the time.

2)Negative is that it brought emptiness as well, emotional emptiness as well, perhaps this is a withdrawal symptom.

3)I just woke up and the sleep after lsd is amazing. 

Yeah, "Afterglow" is pretty relaxing with a degrading half-life across the week. There was a time I was trying to do LSD mostly for that. 

4)It opened my eyes about various things, but not because of enlightenment or anything like that, but just because i am a nutcase in general and this made me more normal. 

You're bound to see more lessons with more experimentation within it. 

You basically just had something jar you into seeing that perspective is something chemical, there's a lot more tunnels to dive into. 

Side note: We all spend way too much time online i just realized that, and i don't like it. 

Seems like Projection, Mr. "My first time tripping I spent comparing to Discord". 

That's all, thanks for reading.

I think I'll read more of you. People kept trying to sell some infamy about you but you don't seem so bad so far. 

I think trying to make your own trip purposefully uncomfortable might appeal to you at some point in the future, like listening to bass that's way too heavy and seeing what happens. If you feel like you're more indifferent like that, then you could try pushing yourself harder to see what comes out of it. 

 The perception of various things like my screen, my dog, was blurred, different, but not optically, more like how i was receiving and reacting to it.

My head was also seeming lighter yet more heavy, not sure how i can describe it in english, it was feeling different, there was no headache either-which is very frequent.

By ego death i refer to the fact that i am extremely reactive to ignorant comments in general, despite that i seemed totally indifferent towards them on lsd.

Bossroach said: 

Cain bro, we get it, you know drugs, you have no ego, you are enlightened and all that stuff. You dont have to prove anyone anything just because youre short bro. Everyone has their problems, you dont have to go the extra length to demonstrate your worth. We appreciate you bro hugs

 The lsd was quite the high dosage, and the physical-mental effects were severe, it's just that i went through the experience online, i wouldn't dare to take it in a real life environment, given how i was unaware about how it would react with my behavior.

Also as someone with bpd perhaps you can relate, but it killed the overreaction to sensitive subjects, but at the same time the next days yesterday-today it increased it, like it started producing a chemical against apathy, i am not sure.

AliceInWonderland said: 

Turncoat said: 

Cain said: 

He probably didn't even take acid. 

Either that or it could have been a shitty batch, or he might have robbed himself of a real experience with it by being glued to his phone or something. Environment is a lot of it. 

I guess we'll see based on if he does or doesn't answer questions. I mean, I've had a trip or two where I stuck to the browser with the lights off and it really felt like a lot of nothing. 

Indeed. 

My first trip ever was spent inside a movie theater watching The Rind Rises which was very enjoyable because I developed a deep emotional connection with each scene and the animations were like moving water colors. I just though that's how the film was animated, I didn't know I was hallucinating until I left the dark movie theater and entered a lit hallway. 

 I took a picture of the lsd with my web cam, and showed it to people who take drugs for years, and they confirmed that it was lsd and something between 200-260 ug. I also told them from what kind of dark web site it was ordered from.

Both you and cain project your lack of self control on me, which is highly sickening. And i am sure that we won't make any sense with each other here but, here is what i did.

That sensation to get lost-to get absolutely "adventured" i was resisting it, i didn't let it take over, i didn't clean my mind, i tried to operate on it normally, and understand it as a drug.

On top of that i might have high tolerance, given how my brain is already "unbalanced" given my mental syndromes, not sure, haven't researched the subject enough.

To be more specific, and i repeat this, this was actual lsd, and i am very very certain, that a bpd+pdp episode that breaks you emotionally, then rises you up with arrogance or delusions of conquering the world, is more intense mentally and emotionally.

So this was just something different for me.

I know it sounds insane, but yes personality disorders-mental syndromes can actually make you used to even lsd-despite it's your first time taking it. My meltdowns so many years were more than enough of a training on how to cope with strange experiences.

That's our difference.

Aizen said: 

Bossroach said: 

Cain bro, we get it, you know drugs, you have no ego, you are enlightened and all that stuff. You dont have to prove anyone anything just because youre short bro. Everyone has their problems, you dont have to go the extra length to demonstrate your worth. We appreciate you bro hugs

 The lsd was quite the high dosage, and the physical-mental effects were severe, it's just that i went through the experience online, i wouldn't dare to take it in a real life environment, given how i was unaware about how it would react with my behavior.

Also as someone with bpd perhaps you can relate, but it killed the overreaction to sensitive subjects, but at the same time the next days yesterday-today it increased it, like it started producing a chemical against apathy, i am not sure.

 

 lol yeah, meth makes me sleep sometimes due to my ADHD. Drugs have the opposite effect with certain disorders.

Turncoat said: 

Cain said: 

He probably didn't even take acid. 

Either that or it could have been a shitty batch, or he might have robbed himself of a real experience with it by being glued to his phone or something. Environment is a lot of it. 

I guess we'll see based on if he does or doesn't answer questions. I mean, I've had a trip or two where I stuck to the browser with the lights off and it really felt like a lot of nothing. 

 It was a good batch, i know because the differences in sensation and reaction to colors was heavy.

Problem is i used it entirely for internet interactions, given how i read that people can completely lose it with lsd and do things that are devoid of any reason or common sense, i didn't dare to move my optical-view away from my screen for long, i was worried about what kind of side effects such action would do.

And by ego death what i mean.

My behavior wasn't based on what i wanted, but what i needed, and what i needed wasn't an interaction, selfish expression, or perhaps responding to people to "e-cuck them roast them", but what i always wanted which is freedom. Therefore restrictions of that freedom like negative emotions were decreased, perhaps that has ties to my sub conscious.

Yes i did feel anger, because something happened that i considered it disrespectful, but i didn't react to it by losing my temper, but just by developing a reaction to it-verbally that was threatening.

In general though, it was more of a balancer, i didn't hallicunate at all, unless you consider various voids in the screen or some <<moving letters>> when i stared for long hallucinating, i don't consider it as such.

I don't see why you people are so hyped with drugs and psychedelics more specifically to be honest, seems to me like you are compensating for lack of emotions, because i know what "losing it" is, and this wasn't the case.

A song before-the lsd could make me cry and even change my most severe decisions, while i took it i would just let it affect me and empty my mind even more.

Perhaps that's individually put but, i am a person who overthinks and overanalyzes, yet this lsd completely killed any thought process, which might be why i was feeling so "free".

I would say that alcohol in excessive doses is worse than this one tab-paper i took, in terms of "losing it".

Depends on my life, general achievements the next week, and emotions, i might take double the dosage, and perhaps attempt suicide on it, not sure, i just predict this outcome for various reasons.

Or i might just do it out of pleasure, or not do it at all. Either way if i do another experiment but with double the dosage, and survive, i will give an update here, perhaps you can tell me more things, or after describing you my various experiences recommend me something more suitable.