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Disgusting drug addict

An experiment isn't an addiction, your point is irrelevant.

If you didn’t hallucinate you didn’t take nearly enough.

LSD comes in many flavors. It's been 25 years or so when I tried it 3 times.

First kind was Sonic. With this I chased down a bus from long distance and caught it. When I was on the bus, I started falling for everyone and I was sad when people would get off at their stop. All kinds of people. It was beautiful.

2nd was Gremlin. This one I don't remember too clearly. It was a mild experience compared to the Sonic.

3rd was called Purple Particles. I'm precautionary when I do stuff but we dropped this at a friends restaurant. I was young and afraid her Father would find out.  He was like a ripped mafia character. Friend was like, Don't worry, we'll be gone by the time it kicks in.

40 minutes later we get in the back of the van and that's when it hit us. For no reason we were laughing hysterically. It was too intense, I wanted it gone while I was looking at 8 more hours of this to go.

Our driver who was a young Italian guy who loved racing so the ride just added that extra edge to the experience.

A couple that was with us broke up, and she was spotted accross the street, so we got in the van. Driver is practically tipping the van by the round about, dude who just broke up went berserk and slip the side door open and tried to jump out the vehicle while we're doing the high speed bend. My buddy who was also trippin grabbed him and they both almost went out the door.

At that point it has only been 30 minutes in and the vibes were not just bad. My tolerance for that nonesense was reduced to snowflake levels. I was being traumatized.

The dude ended up chasing after his girl, we entered the building and in the hall I started to feel better. Admiring the wall paper. It was squiggly. Kinda made me sick.

Met these strange girls. We smoked a j and they ended up riding with us. I think they were prostitutes, I felt like Satan was trolling me.

Eventually i bailed and got home around 3AMish. It was 12 hours since it started and it wasn't fully gone. 

I don't think I was really the same after that one and it marked the end of me experimenting with LSD. 

For this. Potency and environment is key. If you have a strong sense of responsibility like I do, you'll be prone to having a bad trip when surrounded by party animals.

He didn't hallucinate because he is an ignorant of his own ego. 

Cain said: 

He didn't hallucinate because he is an ignorant of his own ego. 

Not everyone's hit by drugs identically. 

It's not like everyone trips the same. 

Honey said: 

Disgusting drug addict

LSD's not addictive. 

Aizen said: 

1)I didn't hallucinate, and i wasn't tripping* at all. I was connected to reality and i knew exactly what was happening. In fact i would say that i was less distracted.

Did everything seem sharper instead of blurrier? Also how was your sleep the day before taking it, and how had your eating been? 

What were you up to during it, more than Discord right? A lot of what you can get out of psychadelics is based on not just you, but your environment. If you're on your cellphone the entire time you won't see the bigger pictures around it. 

With the right music the world can drip to it's tune for instance. 

2)I couldn't sleep for about 10-12 hours not sure, i think 10.

It's a 12 hour trip. Unlike a lot of substances this shit's about planning before you can't plan any longer. 

With two hits though you could probably still manage some semblance of plans though. 

3)After the claims of people who interacted with me in discord on lsd, i made more sense on lsd than i do in general.-I was more social and approachable. 

Did you check those logs the following day, and was it only typing or did you talk too? 

4)Emotions like anger and annoyance would come-and go much faster, in a much more easier-way to cope with them. 

You had anger on LSD? 

I've seen Shroom anger but not LSD. What was it like for you? 

5)Impulse was decreased. 

Makes sense. 

6)No matter what kind of abomination would start an argument with me with his ignorant stupidity, i wouldn't react, i would just move on and talk about something i like. Unlike what i do in general. 

How angry of a person are you without LSD? I still think it's weird that it'd permeate through your trip unless it's like... anger management status. 

7)Fallacies in personal relation ships were minimized, given how i was far less invensted in the interaction, than my notrmal self. 

Ego diminishment is kinda neat, yeah. 

-In general talking objectively, consuming the specific drug made me far more objective, and at some point it <<killed>> what we call ego, given how i didn't proceed with any interaction for the point of winning. 

How would you describe an ego death? 

I feel like you're grabbing that term and assuming you've had it, as it seems more like your sense of self was altered as opposed to absent. 

-Personal views:

1)It also made me more relaxed physically, and i was easier to rest somewhere-despite the inability to sleep. 

Yeah... I've microdosed before just to calm the fuck down. If you want to be more hyper I recommend a single tab paired with some caffeine. My experiences with it have me crash faster, but the euphoria and mindset are more excited. 

Mix it with ecstacy and you get an entirely unrelated experience. 

2)It called indifference, but not the fake one, the actual one, not the "idc about you-while you respond. The one that's actually indifference, i was uninterested in even opening dm's. 

Did you just spend your trip using Discord the entire time? 

You should be surrounding yourself with interesting smells and wondrous art, maybe even a movie or a cinematic game or something while you're still starting out. 

3)I can say this with absolute certainty, my bpd and pdp meltdowns, are far worse and trippy in terms of severity than this, in terms of intensity, this would take a 3/ meanwhile a severe bpd meltdown would take a 10.

That's how I feel about my schizo episodes. Shrooms feels similar but a lot calmer, while LSD is some weird Peter Pan shit. 

4)It didn't cause any panic at all either, despite the toxic environments i hang around into, or the trolls. 

Did you expect people online to scare you like that? 

Try having them next to you IRL while tripping hard, their *everything* is kinda deafening if they aren't otherwise chilling out. 

5)Music unlike what people say, seemed boring to me, unlike when i am sober who i am partially-addicted. 

What genres did you do? 

-It wasn't trippy or psychedelic, it was more of a relaxant and a stabilizer, but at the same time something that allowed you to enjoy intensity-of different types of things.- 

In the drug's defense you only did around two hits. 

1 hit: Like a strong dose of caffeine with some mild mania. 
2 hit: Relaxing with some mild increased sensitivities. Enhances media but it won't outright steal you from your spot. 
3 hit: Confusing, the mind loses what it's holding onto but remembers that it lost it on loop. 
4 hit: This and higher tends to be where things get more synesthetic and otherwise otherworldly for me. While I don't tend to hallucinate as much if at all on it (about as much as I might on a bad day), how it's taken and what it means changes, and one sense can drag others with it if it's pushed. 

After effects:

1)I feel quite apathetic but calm, not so reactive or concerned anymore. Even now. Like i lost an amplifier of stimulation so now i feel calmer, which in my case is beneficial given how i am full of hate all the time.

2)Negative is that it brought emptiness as well, emotional emptiness as well, perhaps this is a withdrawal symptom.

3)I just woke up and the sleep after lsd is amazing. 

Yeah, "Afterglow" is pretty relaxing with a degrading half-life across the week. There was a time I was trying to do LSD mostly for that. 

4)It opened my eyes about various things, but not because of enlightenment or anything like that, but just because i am a nutcase in general and this made me more normal. 

You're bound to see more lessons with more experimentation within it. 

You basically just had something jar you into seeing that perspective is something chemical, there's a lot more tunnels to dive into. 

Side note: We all spend way too much time online i just realized that, and i don't like it. 

Seems like Projection, Mr. "My first time tripping I spent comparing to Discord". 

That's all, thanks for reading.

I think I'll read more of you. People kept trying to sell some infamy about you but you don't seem so bad so far. 

I think trying to make your own trip purposefully uncomfortable might appeal to you at some point in the future, like listening to bass that's way too heavy and seeing what happens. If you feel like you're more indifferent like that, then you could try pushing yourself harder to see what comes out of it. 

He probably didn't even take acid.