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Going to get my brain scanned in NYC in a couple weeks


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I seem to be getting increasingly self destructive at a more and more rapid rate, super scared tbh, going to try to get some answers from the leading field of psychiatry 

not expecting a cure but at least I can possibly contribute to science in some way by giving them data about my mental illness

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What is the purpose of the MRI? What are they looking for? Did you have a traumatic injury to your head ?

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its not an MRI

 

and no but my brain seems to be trying to turn me into a non-functioning vegetable for no good reason at all, its attacking me and self destructing me more and more rapidly and idk why

 

i have some sort of mental illness that is attacking me but its more internal confusion resulting in accidents that are destroying me and sucking out my energy and motivation and ability to enjoy all the pleasurable things that make life worth living-based rather than external like self-mutiliation and suicide attempting

its like internal bpd that i try to keep supressed instead of the normal extroverted form of bpd where like you cut yourself and do a lot of risky behaviors but my version is like turned inwards idk its really really weird and scaring the fuck out of me because im not in control of it, its controlling me

last edit on 11/6/2019 11:53:48 AM
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Ok if not MRI then CT—but the MRI is the more sensitive test

Are you signed up for a clinical trial (you say “giving them data about your illness”) ?

Ask then what they want to r/o (“rule out”)

last edit on 11/6/2019 12:05:00 PM
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bleary said: 

Ok if not MRI then CT—but the MRI is the more sensitive test

Are you signed up for a clinical trial (you say “giving them data about your illness”) ?

 

 no its not CT either, its this- https://www.amenclinics.com/services/brain-spect/

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i am so scared of whats going on with me that im in the process of like writing letters to people for if i die soon, and throwing away any sort of journals or things that I dont want anyone to know about me lol

 

i have this impending sense of im going to die soon, whether its of natural causes or an accident or i commit suicide(unlikely but i might get that desperate in the future who knows). on top of this feeling that its going to happen soon is my own desire for it to happen soon

 

currently i am praying for the right circumstances to come that end my life before it gets any significantly worse than it is right now because its pretty bad right now, even tho i am surrounded by people who love me and i am mostly at peace currently i know that if this internal self destruction continues im probably not going to be able to stay peaceful and thats why i want to die before then

like idk how peaceful i can be if like i go blind or deaf for example or develop a painful illness

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i feel like the clock is ticking on how much time i have left on this earth as me, in this body and this mind. i truly dont see myself being able to live more than a year like i dont feel that i have more than a few months left but i cant predict the future

last edit on 11/6/2019 12:15:02 PM
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OK theee thoughts when you read the FAQ.

See: “I heard SPECT has a poor resolution , some refer to it as poor man’s PET”— he is saying that the resolution of PET scans is better than SPECT, but for some reason he upholds their “clinical reading” of scans is better. Ask him if it’s indicated for you to have SPECT.

Two, your visit is NOT covered by insurance. May want to consider that.

 

Three, how did you find their clinic. He says the scans are indicated, mostly in traumatic brain injury and addiction —but also some subtypes of disorders where patients just “get stuck”

—-did you walk in off the Internet (he’s a New York Times bestselling physician) or did you get a referral ?

 

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what information are they hoping to get from your brain scan? is this a prerequisite for them to prescribe you drugs?

 

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based on what you say, sounds like possible hypofrontality. but a lot of what you are worried about sounds related to mood, and that's probably not going to show up. post results, i am interested

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