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Billy said: 

the average life expectancy is about 75 yo

It's worth visiting how those averages can deviate when you add on additional clauses though. 

With gender for instance, males see a reduction in life expectancy compared to women. Within certain disorders and lifestyle choices, you can see your life expectancy go even lower. 

For myself, the average life expectancy for someone on the schizophrenic spectrum is around 60 for males and 68 for females, and insomnia is liable to shorten it even further. I'm also not exercising everyday and my diet's only real merits are over it's lack of fast food and binging urges that only extend as far as sweets. 

My genetic line seems to age slower than normal, but that's pretty much my only real advantage right now. 

It's interesting to see the trend of improvement with age from you all, despite being from different walks of life.

When it comes to myself, I am very much shaped by my failures and my past obsession with them. With the angst and zeal gained from those I pulled myself to a better headspace. But as I age my clarity on past events sharpens and with that, the full weight of those failures really settles in. 

I've changed so much that there's just this hard disconnect when I relive memories. It feels more like I just woke up in this persons body with these experiences rather than lived them. Looking back, I feel sympathy to the point of anger for this version of myself that feels so foreign. 

In my ambitions, im at my best when working toward the well being of the others I value. My only drive to be successful had honestly been for being able to fully experience friends and future family. Now it's for the absolute stubborn retard with his hopes in all the wrong places that I used to be.

Looking back reminds me that I deserve the good future that is coming to me and all of the good times along the way.

Kestrel said: 

It's interesting to see the trend of improvement with age from you all, despite being from different walks of life.

When it comes to myself, I am very much shaped by my failures and my past obsession with them. With the angst and zeal gained from those I pulled myself to a better headspace. But as I age my clarity on past events sharpens and with that, the full weight of those failures really settles in. 

I've changed so much that there's just this hard disconnect when I relive memories. It feels more like I just woke up in this persons body with these experiences rather than lived them. Looking back, I feel sympathy to the point of anger for this version of myself that feels so foreign. 

In my ambitions, im at my best when working toward the well being of the others I value. My only drive to be successful had honestly been for being able to fully experience friends and future family. Now it's for the absolute stubborn retard with his hopes in all the wrong places that I used to be.

Looking back reminds me that I deserve the good future that is coming to me and all of the good times along the way.

 

  That's a very strong and rational mindset, quite literally based on what you describe.

It's based on acceptance and struggling towards something better but.

Does it work for romantic interests, like perhaps something as strong as the deepest forms of love?

I feel like aging is doing the opposite to me.

I used to be highly suspicious of people and unemotional. Now I find myself being more idealistic and trusting and straight up dumb. I am also making more impulsive decisions and taking risks.

I want to go back in time when I was smarter