That's not the real question, the real question here is, who is the top, and who is the bottom.
Hello, i am fully aware that you don't give a flying fuck about me or who i am or what i am. But just like you don't give a flying fuck, i don't give a flying fuck either.
I am a supreme master manipulator psychopathic-sociopathic-npd-lord with severe bpd traits that cause suicidal urges, or at least used to cause.
I am here because i was vastly abused by npd hot women, and now i seek revenge against their evil kind.
More specifically, i would greatly enjoy if the deluded and narcissstic cruel figures among the lot of you, would come to e-battle me and perhaps e-argue.
Everything is allowed, you can also dox me or share my personal info. I won't report you or bitch about it.
Now the side purpose, and also the good-interesting one.
I noticed to myself that i am losing emotional intensity, in other words, things that would cause a more vast reaction to me in the past, or things that i would care much more in the past, started to stop affecting me.
So why am i here, why do i elaborate like a certified edge lord from r-redit. And why i am writing this.
I wish to get my emotions back, that over concern for people, that over-reacting to people, claims, words, animals, movies.
And i tried many approaches, from drunk to alcohol, self harm, attempted suicide, <<therapy>>.
None of those didn't help, and i have my sincere doubts that they can help in personalities that are self aware and don't delude themselves.
So what is left? If i can't cause myself to feel more alive through extreme methods, or the negative ones i've been used to. Then there are three scenarios.
1)I am a broken case of a human being who is completely devoid of any possible hope for living.
2)I am ignorant and misunderstand my situation, i very much doubt that i am the smartest aspd i know, undeniably, a super duper bad ass psychopathic sociopathic bpd who has potential but never uses it.
ORRRRRRRRRRRRR
3)I do something wrong. (Impossible i am awesome).
So if you got any ideas, or perhaps wish to come at me, call me try hard, call me edgy, whatever that might be, or troll me, i am more than welcome to receive-the judgement uwu.
Wink wink, wink wink
Welcome!
⃛ヾ(๑❛ ▿ ◠๑)
"Blood is really warm,
it's like drinking hot chocolate
but with more screaming"
Hi Aizen, I'm glad you listened and decided to join SC. XD
I noticed to myself that i am losing emotional intensity, in other words, things that would cause a more vast reaction to me in the past, or things that i would care much more in the past, started to stop affecting me.
Did something happen that caused you to stop feeling? How long have you felt dead inside?
So why am i here, why do i elaborate like a certified edge lord from r-redit. And why i am writing this.
I wish to get my emotions back, that over concern for people, that over-reacting to people, claims, words, animals, movies.
And i tried many approaches, from drunk to alcohol, self harm, attempted suicide, <<therapy>>.
None of those didn't help, and i have my sincere doubts that they can help in personalities that are self aware and don't delude themselves.
So what is left? If i can't cause myself to feel more alive through extreme methods, or the negative ones i've been used to. Then there are three scenarios.
1)I am a broken case of a human being who is completely devoid of any possible hope for living.
2)I am ignorant and misunderstand my situation, i very much doubt that i am the smartest aspd i know, undeniably, a super duper bad ass psychopathic sociopathic bpd who has potential but never uses it.
ORRRRRRRRRRRRR
3)I do something wrong. (Impossible i am awesome).
Lots of things can cause emotional numbness. Depression and anxiety are two of the most common causes. Severe levels of acute elevated stress or nervousness can also trigger dulled feelings. Post-traumatic stress disorder can cause numbness, too.
Stress hormones can flood your systems and cause different reactions within the body too. For example, stress hormones can affect the limbic system. The limbic system is located near the center of your brain and is responsible for your emotions. Stress hormones can also affect other hormones in your body, which in turn can affect your mood.
So, it could be a combo of issues creating your dark soul.
I Took The Liberty Of Fertilizing Your Caviar.
this place isn't really owned by any one person, but we tolerate good in exchange for him taking the legal risk of running this place for us
lol
I Took The Liberty Of Fertilizing Your Caviar.
That's a very practical approach. A rational trade, giving him authority for the sake of blaming him in case someone breaks a serious law. I see how it is, so commander is the scapegoat.
Why not test it out and see just how that works out, I would most enjoy it.
Cheery bye!
Aizen said:I noticed to myself that i am losing emotional intensity, in other words, things that would cause a more vast reaction to me in the past, or things that i would care much more in the past, started to stop affecting me.
This is where we seem to be similar.
Aizen said:I wish to get my emotions back, that over concern for people, that over-reacting to people, claims, words, animals, movies.
I'm indifferent to the concept, if I had to pick, I'd just stay where I was.
I'd say we differ in everything else, I don't view myself as a sociopath or anything in regards to PDs. I care not for labels.
gone
I will read all those later.
Now to make it short-as possible.
Miss communication: it's not as simple as just biochemistry.
Commander:I might be bashing you all the time, but i love you-no homo.
Integta or whatever: No i am not a sociopath or a psychopath, don't compare me to them please.
Last person:
I manipulated myself into similing once, i am bad ass.