Hello, i am fully aware that you don't give a flying fuck about me or who i am or what i am. But just like you don't give a flying fuck, i don't give a flying fuck either.
I am a supreme master manipulator psychopathic-sociopathic-npd-lord with severe bpd traits that cause suicidal urges, or at least used to cause.
I am here because i was vastly abused by npd hot women, and now i seek revenge against their evil kind.
More specifically, i would greatly enjoy if the deluded and narcissstic cruel figures among the lot of you, would come to e-battle me and perhaps e-argue.
Everything is allowed, you can also dox me or share my personal info. I won't report you or bitch about it.
Now the side purpose, and also the good-interesting one.
I noticed to myself that i am losing emotional intensity, in other words, things that would cause a more vast reaction to me in the past, or things that i would care much more in the past, started to stop affecting me.
So why am i here, why do i elaborate like a certified edge lord from r-redit. And why i am writing this.
I wish to get my emotions back, that over concern for people, that over-reacting to people, claims, words, animals, movies.
And i tried many approaches, from drunk to alcohol, self harm, attempted suicide, <<therapy>>.
None of those didn't help, and i have my sincere doubts that they can help in personalities that are self aware and don't delude themselves.
So what is left? If i can't cause myself to feel more alive through extreme methods, or the negative ones i've been used to. Then there are three scenarios.
1)I am a broken case of a human being who is completely devoid of any possible hope for living.
2)I am ignorant and misunderstand my situation, i very much doubt that i am the smartest aspd i know, undeniably, a super duper bad ass psychopathic sociopathic bpd who has potential but never uses it.
ORRRRRRRRRRRRR
3)I do something wrong. (Impossible i am awesome).
So if you got any ideas, or perhaps wish to come at me, call me try hard, call me edgy, whatever that might be, or troll me, i am more than welcome to receive-the judgement uwu.
Wink wink, wink wink
