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Bossroach said: 

thats funny, I feel much happier after a series of failed volatile relationships being alone.

I am doing my autistic hobbies (mainly programming and penetration testing for fun), reading, and cooking. I am afraid to add someone in a relationship.

Relationships for me are..... How do you say that.. An obligation. A necessity, like an addiction. And there's warmth, too.. But depth? I don't feel any more depth after banging a chick than I did 10 minutes before the act.

Don't get me wrong.. There's the oxytocin and physical reaction. But my soul... What makes you a person.. It's like there's nothing there... I can't go on with that anymore, I'm just so lonely with my thoughts and nothing else. This really isn't what I signed up for. I feel like someone up there in the heavens cheated me. The job ad doesn't really match reality.

You know I went to this Christian girl and vomited everything out cuz she was hot which translated in my head as being understanding and alike me. I shouldn't have let my dick do the talking, I was like fucking ted bundy in her eyes after that. Turned fucking awkward real fast. Not that I was interested in her but we were semi-good friends and she prob thought I was hot cause I look like Captain Kirk.

Major Major Major said: 

Honey said: 

*hugs*

*cuddles* Aww, thanks dearie.

Well really I do have my pigs. They're like my family. 

Chapo said: 

Maybe consider suicide?

I just enjoy life too much. I'm literally high on life. But I'm... just hungry and lonely. I can't accept that you're all so useless and stupid.. I won't, I never will.

Perhaps reconsider, you seem depressed, weak, useless, lost and suicidal.

Major Major Major said: 

Bossroach said: 

thats funny, I feel much happier after a series of failed volatile relationships being alone.

I am doing my autistic hobbies (mainly programming and penetration testing for fun), reading, and cooking. I am afraid to add someone in a relationship.

Relationships for me are..... How do you say that.. An obligation. A necessity, like an addiction. And there's warmth, too.. But depth? I don't feel any more depth after banging a chick than I did 10 minutes before the act.

Don't get me wrong.. There's the oxytocin and physical reaction. But my soul... What makes you a person.. It's like there's nothing there... I can't go on with that anymore, I'm just so lonely with my thoughts and nothing else. This really isn't what I signed up for. I feel like someone up there in the heavens cheated me. The job ad doesn't really match reality.

You know I went to this Christian girl and vomited everything out cuz she was hot which translated in my head as being understanding and alike me. I shouldn't have let my dick do the talking, I was like fucking ted bundy in her eyes after that. Turned fucking awkward real fast. Not that I was interested in her but we were semi-good friends and she prob thought I was hot cause I look like Captain Kirk.

 I am not a sociopath (BPD with NPD traits) but I can relate to struggling to being accepted and finding someone I can feel a connection to. I can barely get someone to accept me as I am let alone similar enough to connect to. You wish you had someone you could be yourself with and have em by your side still. I think if distractions like drugs or hobbies or sex didnt  exist Id have killed myself a long time ago.

https://www.theguardian.com/us-news/2019/jan/26/pill-for-loneliness-psychology-science-medicine

This thing is coming along soon tho so maybe theres hope xd

one time i killed a wild boar. from down wind i crawled on my hands and knees through the mud so it would not see or smell me. from ten feet i shot it in the neck, dead. i lay in the mud thinking his boar buddies would come tear me up. they had the opportunity but bolted from the shot. it was a nasty old boar full of parasites. one of its eyes was gone, gouged out from fighting i expect. a trophy tusker. i butchered and bagged it up. taking care to keep the meat clean.

i took it back to the cookout and tried to pass it off as a sow cuz everyone loves the sweet sweet sow meat. as people started to eat it, one woman look at me and said, "this meat stinks like boar". i smiled. they ate it anyway. god it stank :)

Bossroach said: 

 I am not a sociopath (BPD with NPD traits) but I can relate to struggling to being accepted and finding someone I can feel a connection to. I can barely get someone to accept me as I am let alone similar enough to connect to. You wish you had someone you could be yourself with and have em by your side still. I think if distractions like drugs or hobbies or sex didnt  exist Id have killed myself a long time ago.

https://www.theguardian.com/us-news/2019/jan/26/pill-for-loneliness-psychology-science-medicine

This thing is coming along soon tho so maybe theres hope xd

I'm too proud to be addicted to or rely on drugs. I take xanax every now and then but those doesn't really give me that sense of euphoria people keep talking about. Today I helped gave CPR to this fucking kid and help call an ambulance cause the moron ODed on some drugs w/e they didn't tell me which ones. It was literally in the fucking middle of nowhere and the guy's girlfriend was crying and begging for help so I did. She didnt even have a phone and the guy's phone was locked and he was passed out. After the fact the girl got snarky with me the moment the guy was in the clear -- I even hopped on the ambulance cause I needed to explain what happened and the girl was in shock. Fucking ungrateful pieces of shit. I should've just walked off and left them there.

 But yes I wish I wasn't so lonely but I'm way to proud to solve the problem by something that I perceive as weak. So how's your day?

Billy said: 

one time i killed a wild boar. from down wind i crawled on my hands and knees through the mud so it would not see or smell me. from ten feet i shot it in the neck, dead. i lay in the mud thinking his boar buddies would come tear me up. they had the opportunity but bolted from the shot. it was a nasty old boar full of parasites. one of its eyes was gone, gouged out from fighting i expect. a trophy tusker. i butchered and bagged it up. taking care to keep the meat clean.

i took it back to the cookout and tried to pass it off as a sow cuz everyone loves the sweet sweet sow meat. as people started to eat it, one woman look at me and said, "this meat stinks like boar". i smiled. they ate it anyway. god it stank :)

 We're hiring at the Harrison Hog Farms. Interested?

Major Major Major said: 

Bossroach said: 

 I am not a sociopath (BPD with NPD traits) but I can relate to struggling to being accepted and finding someone I can feel a connection to. I can barely get someone to accept me as I am let alone similar enough to connect to. You wish you had someone you could be yourself with and have em by your side still. I think if distractions like drugs or hobbies or sex didnt  exist Id have killed myself a long time ago.

https://www.theguardian.com/us-news/2019/jan/26/pill-for-loneliness-psychology-science-medicine

This thing is coming along soon tho so maybe theres hope xd

I'm too proud to be addicted to or rely on drugs. I take xanax every now and then but those doesn't really give me that sense of euphoria people keep talking about. Today I helped gave CPR to this fucking kid and help call an ambulance cause the moron ODed on some drugs w/e they didn't tell me which ones. It was literally in the fucking middle of nowhere and the guy's girlfriend was crying and begging for help so I did. She didnt even have a phone and the guy's phone was locked and he was passed out. After the fact the girl got snarky with me the moment the guy was in the clear -- I even hopped on the ambulance cause I needed to explain what happened and the girl was in shock. Fucking ungrateful pieces of shit. I should've just walked off and left them there.

 But yes I wish I wasn't so lonely but I'm way to proud to solve the problem by something that I perceive as weak. So how's your day?

Billy said: 

one time i killed a wild boar. from down wind i crawled on my hands and knees through the mud so it would not see or smell me. from ten feet i shot it in the neck, dead. i lay in the mud thinking his boar buddies would come tear me up. they had the opportunity but bolted from the shot. it was a nasty old boar full of parasites. one of its eyes was gone, gouged out from fighting i expect. a trophy tusker. i butchered and bagged it up. taking care to keep the meat clean.

i took it back to the cookout and tried to pass it off as a sow cuz everyone loves the sweet sweet sow meat. as people started to eat it, one woman look at me and said, "this meat stinks like boar". i smiled. they ate it anyway. god it stank :)

 We're hiring at the Harrison Hog Farms. Interested?

 What a cunt. This is why I wouldnt help a dying woman. There was this cunt who reported a guy who was giving her CPR for sexual harassment. Saved her life and she tried to get him in the joint.

My days horrible. My operated testicle got inflamed so I cant go meet my new girlfriend in Berlin. A client I am making a mobile app for is trying to get me to do extra work before paying me what he owes me.

What kinda hobbies do you have to distract yourself from loneliness? Mine are online fraud, programming and travelling. Also getting fat. Food makes me forget about what a lonely piece of shit I am sometimes.

Bossroach said: 

Major Major Major said: 

Bossroach said: 

 I am not a sociopath (BPD with NPD traits) but I can relate to struggling to being accepted and finding someone I can feel a connection to. I can barely get someone to accept me as I am let alone similar enough to connect to. You wish you had someone you could be yourself with and have em by your side still. I think if distractions like drugs or hobbies or sex didnt  exist Id have killed myself a long time ago.

https://www.theguardian.com/us-news/2019/jan/26/pill-for-loneliness-psychology-science-medicine

This thing is coming along soon tho so maybe theres hope xd

I'm too proud to be addicted to or rely on drugs. I take xanax every now and then but those doesn't really give me that sense of euphoria people keep talking about. Today I helped gave CPR to this fucking kid and help call an ambulance cause the moron ODed on some drugs w/e they didn't tell me which ones. It was literally in the fucking middle of nowhere and the guy's girlfriend was crying and begging for help so I did. She didnt even have a phone and the guy's phone was locked and he was passed out. After the fact the girl got snarky with me the moment the guy was in the clear -- I even hopped on the ambulance cause I needed to explain what happened and the girl was in shock. Fucking ungrateful pieces of shit. I should've just walked off and left them there.

 But yes I wish I wasn't so lonely but I'm way to proud to solve the problem by something that I perceive as weak. So how's your day?

Billy said: 

one time i killed a wild boar. from down wind i crawled on my hands and knees through the mud so it would not see or smell me. from ten feet i shot it in the neck, dead. i lay in the mud thinking his boar buddies would come tear me up. they had the opportunity but bolted from the shot. it was a nasty old boar full of parasites. one of its eyes was gone, gouged out from fighting i expect. a trophy tusker. i butchered and bagged it up. taking care to keep the meat clean.

i took it back to the cookout and tried to pass it off as a sow cuz everyone loves the sweet sweet sow meat. as people started to eat it, one woman look at me and said, "this meat stinks like boar". i smiled. they ate it anyway. god it stank :)

 We're hiring at the Harrison Hog Farms. Interested?

 What a cunt. This is why I wouldnt help a dying woman. There was this cunt who reported a guy who was giving her CPR for sexual harassment. Saved her life and she tried to get him in the joint.

My days horrible. My operated testicle got inflamed so I cant go meet my new girlfriend in Berlin. A client I am making a mobile app for is trying to get me to do extra work before paying me what he owes me.

What kinda hobbies do you have to distract yourself from loneliness? Mine are online fraud, programming and travelling. Also getting fat. Food makes me forget about what a lonely piece of shit I am sometimes.

 <3stay strong jimmy, things will get better

No wonder you're lonely if you talk down to people like in this post. 

Pennywise said: 

No wonder you're lonely if you talk down to people like in this post. 

 Hey ;) nice post

*slashes wrists violently*