i much much prefer being emotionally and physically unavailable
This place is your physical availability.
And emotional attention teddy bear.
True.
The world rejects you, so you spam here and delude yourself into thinking we give a fuck about you or your life. Some try to push you into clear thinking, some mock, others manipulate, and none care about you (honestly).
Not true at all, i rejected the world. i get asked by people all the time to go do things with and hang out with them
I'll pose a third posibility:
Is it perhaps a rejection fetish based around your room to delusionally cope into raw adrenaline? It's kinda like when Blanc goes off the deep end from lacking a proper enabler, except yours actually seems to enjoy the rejection.
Emotional Masochism of a form could fit here.
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