okay i watched the first two videos, watching the third in a moment
i'll let you knwo what i think once i finished watchin gall the materials but so far i think i can do it
as long as i'm in top physical condition before i go and, make sure to practice some mental techniques. i'll practice the stunts he pulls ahead of time.
he obviously doesn't like people disrespecting or laughing so i won't do that either.
just be a blank canvas for him.
and yeah, obviously shave your head and your eyebrows before you go in.
this looks like fun!
the fact he didn't make people remove their piercings says right there, this isn't real torture.
idgaf if i die so
i'm just gonna be sitting there being suffocated like "yes please kill me russ"
problem is i have a criminal thing on my record, i was a minor so it should be erased by now but, sometimes people still can access that.
my facebook is clean as a whistle, it has to be cuz my family follows it.
and yeah i dont know if he can find out about my psychiatric history but, if does access that i'll just tell him i went in for ptsd and suicide so there's not really a lot that i'm afraid of at this point.
i've already been to deaths door and i already have ptsd so idgaf about getting more of it. i've literally experienced the worst possible feelings you could ever get and i've had years of practice training my mind to handle it.
and like i said, i'm really great at numbing out situatons, pain, fear, etc.
i wanna see how far i can make it! i'm gonna start training now haha bootcamp here i come
also the fact you're allowed multiple tries makes it easier, i would of figured you only get one shot.
but yeah uh, i wanna do it
i've always found normal horror movies and haunted houses boring. or even challenging man-hunt scarios or video games, etc. i find it all boring af
i want to be really challenged.
apparently he does some psychological trhiller shit where he's like twisting around with your mind and making you hallucinate and believe shits appening that isn't really happenng, it's mostly mind tricks.
i've studied this stuff like intently so i know exactly the tricks he'd be pulling.
he said he's an ex-interrogator and i study that stuff for fun as well
criminology, serial killers, etc. that's my shit right there. psycholgical thrillers are the only movies i do watch, because normal horror doesn't do it for me.
i laugh at serial killers because i think they're stupid.
i would probably get along great with this guy, he reminds me of my own family. like, he's a lot like the people i grew up with and was beaten and psychologically abused by my entire life lmfao
being buried and suffocated would be sorta new to me but, i've played with spiders, sharks, snakes, been down in caves and, swam with sharks etc. i've done intense "boys" bootcamps and stuff and it was no biggie
(they were so intense people will leave the island halfway through and, it's like, you gotta sign forms like this thing because if anything happens to you they're not liable)
lke, it's legitametely dangerous af. and not everyone can handle it mentally and physically, i watched people break from it.
and yes, it was on a deserted island in the middle of the ocean with wild animals, we had to fend for ourselves cook our own food (without tools or means to cook it), find our own food, and we had nothing but the clothes on our backs.
but it was so hot, and there were so much bugs... you had to sleep in something called "sargasm" right by the water, just to cool off a bit. but it wasn't pleasant, notonly is it riddled with bugs and strange squirming sea animals, not only is it 102 degrees, and you're getting eaten alive by mosquitos and the like 24/7 and you're dehydrated out there for days, delirous, starving, with real threats like, swimming with literal sharks, jelly fish, other poisonous things around. you had to be knowledgable about that shit, what not to touch, etc.
we were also barefoot hahaha
but yeah you had to sleep like out in the dark in this sargasm shit that, smells like literal death. not joking. not like a little funky, like, unbearable, vomit. you had to cover your body in it and sleep.
and you also had people drilling you the entire time, giving you intense tasks. in the heat of the day, waking you up at midnight, etc. you gotta drop what you're doing and do what they say. you can't question it. etc.
just the basic training to even enter the program (the physical fitness tests) are so intense and disgusting, and terrifying.
but for me i just saw it as a competition and a chance to excel. by the end of the week i had learned a lot, about survival, and had learned just how tough i was haha. we also didn't get to bathe.
they would put fifty pounds on us and make us carry it on our hands or on our backs like a ruksack and run around the island in the beating sun and heat in the sand barefoot. you cut yourself a lot. running in sand is hard. there's twigs and shit this aint a pretty island, it's rustic, abandoned, buggy, stinky. there is *nothing* on it, and no help, no people can hear you. for like 200 miles lmfao
there is no escape either. once the boat drops you off, you have to wade into the island on foot with the sharks and shit, eels, stingrays, carrying gallons of water over your head
(you're allowed water but it's limited, just so you don't drop dead)
but you gotta carry it eveywhere obviously.
(it was 2 weeks)
10 hours sounds like nothing to me.
we shat in a fucking hole in the ground and made fire with sticks.
i rememer about halfway through, i was just so like, not giving a fuck. i laid down in the sand naked at night to cool off, and just laid there. feeling sick to my stomach, drenched in sweat and dirt. starving. thirsty. dizzy. knowing i had to get back up in the mornng and do it all over again.
so i just stopped caring and took all my clothes off and used it as a pillow.
that was the only comfort i had.
and the people who are "training" you are mean as fuck. on purpose, of course. they do everything they can to like, fuck with your head and make you fold, make you go home, make you quit. make you feel small and like you can't do it.
there was also competitions, like through out the camp liek, whoever finishes this maze, or does ten laps against the current around the eyeland in a kayak the fastest, wins a hot meal or that kind of deal. and also whoever could catch the biggest shark.
there was other limits like, how long we could hold our breath and how many laps we could do while in the water without breathing. we went to 35k feet deep, and were released from a helicopter, and had to dive in feet first, and then snorkel our way to the shore.
with sharks, i can't stress this enough. lots and lots of sharks. lol
and i already mentioned the mangrove maze.
but yeah, i grew up being water tortured by my parents idk why they thought that was a good idea but, the scenes where people are in bath tubs or getting burried and suffocated, that wouldn't make me fold.
i dunno what would, it would probably be psycholgoical hallucinations that would do me in just because i dont know how to stop those from happening, it's difficult to fight that i suppose but like he's saying in the game, "go to your hapy place" so maybe i could dissociate from it and not listen to the words/sounds?
i can block shit out by listening ot music in my head or humming, going into deep meditative states. staying calm in the chaos sort of thing so.
i would like to see how far i could get hah
