As a kid in school I would challenge people to fight in the class to show off and stunt on everyone. This has earned me alot of syncopaths but also alot of hate and resentment from everyone around me.
Many times I went full destruction mode (ex: SC) to display my superiority and it worked until Luna was able to mitigate my DDoS. People watched what they said about me until they realized I wouldn't DDoS again but this left me feeling conflicted.
Do I want to be feared and seen as the big bad guy who'll wreck shit and put everyone to respect or do I want to be nice and cool and be liked by everyone and popular? Is it better to be the bully or the cool chill guy?
What do you prefer? Would you rather be loved by people or have them fear you? Being feared gives me a great power rush but sometimes it conflicts me knowing people dislike me.