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Turncoat said: 

 <3 youre so cute

if you get your panties in a wad about social conditioning, then its working.

TC, the thing with following your heart is you dont always know where it is going to lead, in fact most often it leads you into the unknown. This is precisely what seems to terrify you, the unknown

You want comfort, the known, the researched, and being in control. I want excitement adventure and exploring my impulses wherever they lead me- "good" or "bad", painful or pleasurable, I follow my heart and go with the flow of what comes with those decisions. My first impression of why my impulses lead me where they do are not always correct, in fact a lot of times they arent. but upon future introspection about the past, I realize why my heart led me in that direction, even if it turned out much differently than i originally assumed it would, and all the puzzle prices of my life come together in an even more beautiful and magnificent way as my heart continues to fill with more happiness, joy, fulfilment and life satisfaction 

this is why I follow my heart, instead of doing things your way. I love comfort just as much as anyone trust me, but I also get bored and empty if I stay in the known for too long. You love the known, I love the unknown. but I dont follow my heart into ultra dangerous situations that will certainly lead to death, because that is terrifying to me lol. I follow my heart in directions that both scare and excite and intrigue me and i will always continue to do so for the rest of my life

I'm sorry that you have such a hard time with this, and I respect your desire to want to mother and protect me but I always follow my heart first and foremost even with the risk that i will get hurt. I only follow my heart in directions that even if I get hurt it will still be worth it to me

pain isnt always a bad thing. btw didnt you say you were a masochist? The difference between you and I is preference for the known, vs the unknown would you say? I like basically throwing myself off metaphorical cliffs into the unknown if my heart calls me there lol, and I've done thst in real life too. Into water, at a safe height lol, I'm obviously still alive do I dont take risks that lead to death. but I have taken risks that have led to pain and thats ok to me

can you explain to me why you try to protect me, im assuming thats your intention anyway when you try to talk me out of my dreams and goals, when you yourself also have some masochistic traits? 

I really care about you and value you a lot TC and i want to come to some sort of peace and understanding between us. I think it would be valuable and both of us would grow from it

I thought we were at peace. I mean... we're just slinging Disney at each other. 

aubrieta said: 

pain isnt always a bad thing. btw didnt you say you were a masochist?

You're hurting yourself within your attempts to avoid your other pains that you find scarier. Handling that pain could otherwise reduce your overall daily upkeep and help you escape this (arguably) delusional tunnel you've found yourself in. 

Turncoat said: 

aubrieta said: 

pain isnt always a bad thing. btw didnt you say you were a masochist?

You're hurting yourself within your attempts to avoid your other pains that you find scarier. Handling that pain could otherwise reduce your overall daily upkeep and help you escape this (arguably) delusional tunnel you've found yourself in. 

 I mean, is my bae not also (arguably) delusional? To be not delusional at all kills all artistic creativity

What is wrong with being (arguably) delusional if you're enjoying yourself exactly?

And on that note, can you name a single human being who had no delusions whatsoever?

Ha is it not you yourself who claims that there is no objective truth? That everything is an illusion? Wouldn't that make every single human being delusional;)

And why would you think that you know better than me, what type of pain I find more pleasurable? Maybe i like the extra amount of pain that comes with being a little extra delusional. Who are you, as a fellow claimed masochist, to tell me what type of pain I should prefer? Or that I should want to minimize any pain I experience in general?