You're just acting really weird like why would you keep pursuing someone who clearly has no interest in you and is married it makes no sense that you delusionally believe he would leave his wife for you?
I guess I always thought you were trolling but you're not and I dont understand how you can be so delusional and why you have such low self esteem to pursue someone who says awful horrible things about you like that you're ugly and not worth it and too old and your pussy is loose and other stuff
like do you just have immensely low self esteem and like being used and abused