It was asked publicly in chat for all to see, and you clearly want to hide things despite an inability to stop yourself from trying to communicate the stuff (ie: Captioning your room).
You don't seem to know when or how to quit beyond not accepting offers when they're fresh and scary to you still.
Why wouldn't you want her asking that though, because you know he'll say no, which dashes at your fantasies?
Edit: I'll take this as a yes.
^ How she began to figure Chapo played against an imitation Med in Chess before making 2+ 3+ responses about it:
bleary said:I would like to know who played chapo chess though ‘cause he thought it was me
bleary said:Who played chess with chapo such he thought it was me Lel
01:45:03 bleary Ok fess up who played chapo chess
Her calling out Tryp for being an "alcoholic" when he called her out during some banter with BR about his wife and Synesthesia (edited out the BR parts):
Chat Log:Tryptamine: bleary
stop
bleary
quit talking like a fucking retard
bleary: Tryp please don’t talk to me
Tryptamine: get your shit together
quit stalking people online
fuck off until you fix yourself
bleary: Tryp shut up don’t talk to me
Tryptamine: i am telling you the truth
ask anyone
bleary: What do you want tryp shut up
Tryptamine: do it right now
ask literally anyone in this chat
bleary: Go fuck off yourself you lazy fucking alcoholic
Tryptamine: if they think your desire for a relationship is within the bounds of normality
bleary: I’m going to block tryp I’m trying to talk
bleary: Alcohol makes people angry
Alcoholism
He can’t help himself
We should do the CAGE questions
Tryptamine: just like erotomania makes people mentally ill
bleary: Of alcoholism
Tryptamine: maybe you can show up to your obsession's job again
as much alcohol as i drink
bleary: Did tryp day he wants to shoot me?
Tryptamine: it will never make me do what you are doing
bleary: Tryptamine I’m sorry you don’t understand the relationship .
I’ve never met you
And I never will
Tryptamine: everyone understood it
they all said you were being too obsessed
then yesterday, chapo comes on here
bleary: I wasn’t here when he was here I was working
Tryptamine: he's like, "this woman is crazy, she showed up at my job"
bleary: Allister
Whorechata: Ooooh
Tryptamine: you realize i'm not making this up right
bleary: I’m done talking about it with you
Whorechata: Name drops
🍿
Tryptamine: this isn't some bullshit i'm coming up with
lel
bleary: Allister I’m not interested in you
Sorry
Tryptamine: i'm not worried about that
med you just got laid the fuck out in front of everyone
bleary: Incidentally he asked me not to visit him at work, privately, and I will respect his wishes
Otherwise it’s not your business
Tryptamine: alice in wonderland
bleary: See what I’m saying
Tryptamine: i would usually feel bad about picking on the mentally ill
you did ask for it tho
and it's not like i didn't try to help you either
bleary: I didn’t ask for anything. He privately asked me not to visit him at work and therefore I will respect that
bleary: And he’s trying to say he’s helping me by interfering in my relationship about which he knows nothing
Tryptamine: med you don't need to make threads about me to leverage your frustration
I understand you are upset
I'm not really going to care about some trivial shit you write in a thread
bleary: Relax alcoholic can’t you take a little teasing
Tryptamine: honestly i am more surprised than anything
bleary: What is this place
Tryptamine: you are a curveball
it's a sociopath community
med you are actually on my bad side now
bleary: Tryp you were calling me mentally ill, erotomanic, interfering in my relationship which you know nothing about except on hearsay , this is a trolling forum can’t you take it ???
Tryptamine: bleary what are u talking about
Whorechata: How can tryp interfere in a relationship that doesn't exist
Her calling me out for "being sick" when targeting her over genuine things:
LEAGUE OF Legends Pro-tip #28: When she won’t shut up over vc...
She's called Alena a lesbian over some weird idea of Chapo "being tired" after talking to her, and over how "failed relations turn women gay", otherwise likely as a response towards a misplaced perception of antagonism from Med.
She's getting defensive over Turquie trying to genuinely help her as her one supporter...
She cannot take criticism, instead always falling on either ignoring the failure or calling people out on their flaws to try to redirect the attention away from herself and to try to take the person (or place) less seriously. It's the classic narc ad hom defense. She'll do anything to not have to redefault her world view, typically in the form of projective lashing. In her worldview, she cannot face failure, so she won't.
She doesn't want to get better, she'd rather chase the fantasy Chapo shows himself publicly as wanting no part in anymore. She can barely grasp human behavior, as seen with topics like "Cool Point system for determining if it’s OK to ask a stranger out".
Turncoat do you work or are you on disability? You seem to have a lot of time on your hands
How is this any different than your targeting Tryp for his alcoholism?
When discussing your problems, it doesn't matter what my problems are if I'm not the only one seeing them. I've otherwise gone at length openly about my issues and flaws, something you can't seem to grasp at all for yourself.
