well I think she is unintentionally projecting what happened between her a tryptamine, her intentions might not be bad. I have also dated guys in the past who did not treat me right and had a lot of those red flags she mentioned but Pseud doesnt have those
Excellent, I’m glad he doesn’t.
I’m not projecting tryptamine, he was psychologically manipulative and dismissive, and a bit of an ass.
But he wasn’t a psychotic deranged psychopath who tried to kill me.
Leo was. When I referred to “I’ve been abused before so I know the red flags.”
I was referring to Leo. The signs I listed, I learned from him.
The difference between Tryp and Leo was, Tryp didn’t have an ounce of controlling nature in his body. He was extremely passive, sensitive, fragile. He wasn’t volatile, instigating. He was more, reactionary- and his reactions were calm.
Leo wasn’t reactionary, he never played defense with me. Never. He was always on the offensive side. Instigating, and erratic- not calm. He *was* volatile. Meaning his actions were so extreme, that it was beyond psychotic and abusive nature. He was extremely, controlling.
And if I had to boil it down to one thing- it’s ego.
Leo, was incapable of seeming self loathing, or even exhibiting humility, grief, compassion, or empathy. The only time we would exhibit these things, if it was directly for some particular agenda. But he was never self loathing genuinely, he didn’t have the capacity because of ego, and narcissism.
He was genuinely a narcissist. Who only displayed emotion for manipulation. Otherwise it was always about, grandeur. Entertaining his own self, his own desires, his own ego. I was a part of that because I was his gf. So to him I was just an extension of his own ego- most of which was about looks, and the desire to possess someone or to “have” someone. It didn’t matter who, it was just a power thing. He felt weak if a girl couldn’t love him.
He abused his mother. He hurt them on purpose, and used his parents, and laughed about it. And thought everyone on this planet was an idiot, except for him.
Tryp was nothing like Leo. Trust me. That’s only the beginning, of his behavior. I could write a book.
I just wanted to clarify, I dont know why you lump the two together. Tryp respected my boundaries, he had his own qualms with me that weren’t irrational and were justified, they came about in a natural way.
Leo would come up with shit out of the blue, to get something out of me. Once again, rather than reactionary- i.e “i dont knowi why you hung up on me but, i’M going to distance myself for a day or two and think about things and not respond to ur texts” granted, not the best thing to do but, reactionary. Leo, was offensive. i.e “I want her to have sex with me on my birthday, so i’m Going to tell her i’m Going to cheat on her with a random girl tonight- and threaten her with that to make her insecure.”
How i responded? I threw a glass of coke in his face in a public restaurant.
I have my own reasons for breaking up with tryp but they were nothing attune to the reasons I left Leo. Leo tried to kill me with a knife, and his bare hands. In the middle of the fucking night- simply because he felt me slipping from his grip of control and he didn’t like it.
Just like when I laughed about him not knowing how to drive a stick shift- it questioned his ego, and so he slammed my head into the passenger seat car window as hard as he could. As hard, as he could.
Tryp would never do something like that. He would just psychologically and emotionally manipulate you, but not physically. Though he very well could. I tried to arm wrestle him to test his strength, and telling by it- he could easily slam my body into wall with enough force to knock me out cold if he wanted to. He could beat me bloody and mercilessly, to the point of losing consciousness. He wasn’t weak. But he never laid a finger, or even hinted at doing something like that. He was passsive natured, very passive natured. Which I liked, after having come from an abusive relationship with someone as volatile as Leo. I wanted someone passive who I knew, it just wasn’t in their nature to get so fired up.
Even when he was drunk (tryp) he would just act like a goofball. Sure he said mean things, but it was once again just passive and off the cuff- reactionary to something you said. Kind of more like a- distant grumbling more than like a threatening, I’m going to harm you kind of way.
I just want to make it really clear they’re nothing alike in nature. I could sense that kind of thing. Very different types.
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Excellent, I’m glad he doesn’t.
I’m not projecting tryptamine, he was psychologically manipulative and dismissive, and a bit of an ass.
But he wasn’t a psychotic deranged psychopath who tried to kill me.
Leo was. When I referred to “I’ve been abused before so I know the red flags.”
I was referring to Leo. The signs I listed, I learned from him.
The difference between Tryp and Leo was, Tryp didn’t have an ounce of controlling nature in his body. He was extremely passive, sensitive, fragile. He wasn’t volatile, instigating. He was more, reactionary- and his reactions were calm.
Leo wasn’t reactionary, he never played defense with me. Never. He was always on the offensive side. Instigating, and erratic- not calm. He *was* volatile. Meaning his actions were so extreme, that it was beyond psychotic and abusive nature. He was extremely, controlling.
And if I had to boil it down to one thing- it’s ego.
Leo, was incapable of seeming self loathing, or even exhibiting humility, grief, compassion, or empathy. The only time we would exhibit these things, if it was directly for some particular agenda. But he was never self loathing genuinely, he didn’t have the capacity because of ego, and narcissism.
He was genuinely a narcissist. Who only displayed emotion for manipulation. Otherwise it was always about, grandeur. Entertaining his own self, his own desires, his own ego. I was a part of that because I was his gf. So to him I was just an extension of his own ego- most of which was about looks, and the desire to possess someone or to “have” someone. It didn’t matter who, it was just a power thing. He felt weak if a girl couldn’t love him.
He abused his mother. He hurt them on purpose, and used his parents, and laughed about it. And thought everyone on this planet was an idiot, except for him.
Tryp was nothing like Leo. Trust me. That’s only the beginning, of his behavior. I could write a book.
I just wanted to clarify, I dont know why you lump the two together. Tryp respected my boundaries, he had his own qualms with me that weren’t irrational and were justified, they came about in a natural way.
oh what stood out to me was the addiction issues, unemployed, trying to use women for money or a place to live etc Pseud is the type to give money not ask for it and has his own place and job and friends and all that
I didn't lump tryptamine and Leo together because i've never heard of Leo lol. or did you mean tryptamine and slay? they are both losers with red flags is why i would lump them together. if i recall you mentioned thinking tryp was going to hit and abuse you and he tells other girls he wants to kill them often like med and lena
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That is incorrect tryptamine has never threatened to kill me aubrieta where are you getting this ?? In reality I have talked to him little
ya he has in general chat on cancer community
I didn't lump tryptamine and Leo together because i've never heard of Leo lol. or did you mean tryptamine and slay? they are both losers with red flags is why i would lump them together. if i recall you mentioned thinking tryp was going to hit and abuse you and he tells other girls he wants to kill them often like med and lena
No i never said that wtf. I never thought he would abuse me physically.
He had every opportunity too. There was a moment I slipped, and broke that barrier of like “not touching someone” when you’re angry and fighting. (Dangerous to do, you’ll get hit or shoved or something usually how most people will react to that without thinking.) And I turned his chin up to me because he wasn’t looking at me when I was talking to him.
And I said, “look at me when I’m talkin to you.”
You know, I immediately realized the words and actions of my parents that were engrained in me, jumped out.
I can’t be with someone who makes me that kind of angry. He was very passive. He could of swatted my hand away or told me not to touch him or yelled at me, he could of gotten explosive just then- it was the prime opportunity. He could of done a lot then.
But he didn’t. That’s how I know he’s not the type to do anything. Someone with anger management and abusive tendencies would of whooped my ass for that. Someone like Leo.
Once, me and Leo were fighting for example, he came up behind me while I was standing in the mirror brushing my teeth. And I pushed him out and said, “leave me alone” i just wanted my privacy while in the bathroom (which, he would never give me. Never. I wasn’t allowed to shut the door- and yes, even when i fucking showered. If I refused, he would choke me.)
And in reaction to me pushing him, he grabbed me and threw me into a wall. In 2 seconds flat.
two different types of people, you see?
That is incorrect tryptamine has never threatened to kill me aubrieta where are you getting this ?? In reality I have talked to him little
ya he has in general chat on cancer community
Ok explain why would tryp threaten to kill me ? This is news to me