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Sintetika said: 

It's as if everyone here has dated each other at one point or another. I don't understand this phenomena. 

 It's really unfortunate because, I've found so many people to be charming people that I wouldn't mind dating. 

Not just on here but, out in my real life too. I had so many opportunities for a desirable relationship, that most women would kill for. They'd kill for it. 

But I can't just lie to myself continually, I don't enjoy these relationships with men. I'm gay. I enjoy relationships with women. 

It's so unfortunate. Really, I've met some cute people, that have taken interest in me as well. Some, have taken a really "die-hard" interest even. Like, they *really* genuinely loved and cared about me, and wanted so badly for me to be with them. 

I can provide chapters of information as "proof" that I'm gay XD but, the most verifiable facts that you can look at, 

is the sole body of evidence- a list of names of men who I've all declined. These were good men ok. Great opportunities. Charismatic, attractive, wonderful guys. 

I could of had it made 10x over now. Not kidding. It SUCKs being a dyke sometimes XD

I'd love to be attracted to men in the same way I am women, but I'm just not. It's just not there. It never will be. If it was there it would make my life a lot easier in *so many ways* 

Blanc said: 

Sintetika said: 

It's as if everyone here has dated each other at one point or another. I don't understand this phenomena. 

 It's really unfortunate because, I've found so many people to be charming people that I wouldn't mind dating. 

 

Not just on here but, out in my real life too. I had so many opportunities for a desirable relationship, that most women would kill for. They'd kill for it. 

 

But I can't just lie to myself continually, I don't enjoy these relationships with men. I'm gay. I enjoy relationships with women. 

 

It's so unfortunate. Really, I've met some cute people, that have taken interest in me as well. Some, have taken a really "die-hard" interest even. Like, they *really* genuinely loved and cared about me, and wanted so badly for me to be with them. 

 

I can provide chapters of information as "proof" that I'm gay XD but, the most verifiable facts that you can look at, 

 

is the sole body of evidence- a list of names of men who I've all declined. These were good men ok. Great opportunities. Charismatic, attractive, wonderful guys. 

 

I could of had it made 10x over now. Not kidding. It SUCKs being a dyke sometimes XD

 

I'd love to be attracted to men in the same way I am women, but I'm just not. It's just not there. It never will be. If it was there it would make my life a lot easier in *so many ways* 

 

 why do you always feel the need to prove you're gay? It seems like your parents have probably invalidated you your whole life and told you that you're not and you're just trying to be a problem child or something. fuck them lol. i believe that you're gay now that I understand that why you dated tryp was more about pleasing your parents than being actually romantically and sexually attracted to him in person. maybe you thought you were online but ya i doubt hes........charming.......irl, especially compared to the way hotter more desirable men youve dated, i mean I consider most guys Ive dated waaay cuter hotter and more charismatic than tryp(was until his teeth started rotting and got all the top row removed out of his mouth ew gross lol) but you're wealthy and your parents have connections so im sure youve had some major hotties into you

Yeah there’s a lot of issues in this department at home. 

I have to pretend to not be gay so that they won’t disown me 

not kidding, they already have. 

So so I had to forcibly put myself back in the closet in order to be safe loved and cared about and financially stable 

I figured it would be temporary until I could get my shit straight enough to be financially independent 

and just slowly work on the idea of it slowwwwwly becoming okay 

but that plan failed, they’re not malleable on the matter. 

They truly believe I am the scum of the earth and “not worth wasting resources on” if I am gay. 

They literally put it like this. “God says that if you aid a sinner then you are also committing that same sin and will be judged for it. And instructs us to ‘cast them out’ as they are a waste of your life and gifts. That they don’t deserve gods love and will not receive it when living a sinful life style. And the only way they can find God is by casting them out. So you are essentially helping them find god (which is the only thing that matters in all this life and the most important thing) by letting them suffer with nothing. To let them get a taste of living outside of gods ‘kingdom’ and ‘blessings’ and see what that’s like and how much it sucks.” 

But heres the thing. Shoving a bible down my throat doesn’t make me less gay. Disowning me financially. Emotionally. And physically putting me on the street, doesn’t make me less gay. It’s not a conscious decision to be gay. 

Arguinf wirh me about jt it doesn’t change it. Telling me all the reasons I shouldn’t be doesn’t change it. Trying to beat it out of me or punish me for it doesn’t change it. Throwing out all my girlfriends of the house, forcing me to not talk to them or not being allowed to be seeing them doesn’t change it. 

Its not from an outside influence, so getting rid of all outside influences you think caused it won’t change it. 

Nothing you can possibly imagine gets “rid” of it. 

Forcing me into the closet and hoping it will pass as a phase also, not a good solution. 

Because you’re not broken and being gay isn’t something that needs to be fixed or corrected. 

Im not confused misled or just being lustful or trying to be cool and trendy, or rebellious. These are all things they have proposed, including that I was doing it to punish them, or that I was doing it for some other outlandish motive... the list goes on and on. 

It’s sexuality. It’s a natural pre-set you have. 

Youre just that way. 

Blanc said: 

Yeah there’s a lot of issues in this department at home. 

 

I have to pretend to not be gay so that they won’t disown me 

 

not kidding, they already have. 

 

So so I had to forcibly put myself back in the closet in order to be safe loved and cared about and financially stable 

 

I figured it would be temporary until I could get my shit straight enough to be financially independent 

 

and just slowly work on the idea of it slowwwwwly becoming okay 

 

but that plan failed, they’re not malleable on the matter. 

 

They truly believe I am the scum of the earth and “not worth wasting resources on” if I am gay. 

 

They literally put it like this. “God says that if you aid a sinner then you are also committing that same sin and will be judged for it. And instructs us to ‘cast them out’ as they are a waste of your life and gifts. That they don’t deserve gods love and will not receive it when living a sinful life style. And the only way they can find God is by casting them out. So you are essentially helping them find god (which is the only thing that matters in all this life and the most important thing) by letting them suffer with nothing. To let them get a taste of living outside of gods ‘kingdom’ and ‘blessings’ and see what that’s like and how much it sucks.” 

 

But heres the thing. Shoving a bible down my throat doesn’t make me less gay. Disowning me financially. Emotionally. And physically putting me on the street, doesn’t make me less gay. It’s not a conscious decision to be gay. 

 

Arguinf wirh me about jt it doesn’t change it. Telling me all the reasons I shouldn’t be doesn’t change it. Trying to beat it out of me or punish me for it doesn’t change it. Throwing out all my girlfriends of the house, forcing me to not talk to them or not being allowed to be seeing them doesn’t change it. 

 

Its not from an outside influence, so getting rid of all outside influences you think caused it won’t change it. 

 

Nothing you can possibly imagine gets “rid” of it. 

 

Forcing me into the closet and hoping it will pass as a phase also, not a good solution. 

 

Because you’re not broken and being gay isn’t something that needs to be fixed or corrected. 

 

Im not confused misled or just being lustful or trying to be cool and trendy, or rebellious. These are all things they have proposed, including that I was doing it to punish them, or that I was doing it for some other outlandish motive... the list goes on and on. 

 

It’s sexuality. It’s a natural pre-set you have. 

 

Youre just that way. 

 Religion sux ass I'm so glad I didn't stay sucked back into it

Blanc said: 

yeah, i knew people would assume that was related to my sexuality but. it's not. 

That depends on if Sapiosexuality counts. 

Blanc said: 

I shouldn’t have to like tell everyone the explicit personal details of my relationships and my life for people to approve of my sexuality's authenticity 

What's wrong with people having opinions on you that differ from your own? 

Turncoat said: 

Blanc said: 

yeah, i knew people would assume that was related to my sexuality but. it's not. 

That depends on if Sapiosexuality counts. 

Blanc said: 

I shouldn’t have to like tell everyone the explicit personal details of my relationships and my life for people to approve of my sexuality's authenticity 

What's wrong with people having opinions on you that differ from your own? 

it matters in a lot of ways but, this is also a place where i vent on things that bother me. it feels better to express things sometimes than it does to sit on it. i dunno. 

so thats mainly what i was doing in this thread, as always 

Blanc said: 

They literally put it like this. “God says that if you aid a sinner then you are also committing that same sin and will be judged for it. And instructs us to ‘cast them out’ as they are a waste of your life and gifts. That they don’t deserve gods love and will not receive it when living a sinful life style. And the only way they can find God is by casting them out. So you are essentially helping them find god (which is the only thing that matters in all this life and the most important thing) by letting them suffer with nothing. To let them get a taste of living outside of gods ‘kingdom’ and ‘blessings’ and see what that’s like and how much it sucks.” 

I agree. 

Bad company can really drag us down.

But heres the thing. Shoving a bible down my throat doesn’t make me less gay. Disowning me financially. Emotionally. And physically putting me on the street, doesn’t make me less gay. It’s not a conscious decision to be gay. 

 According to you, your Mother is bisexual.

its been obvious to me that they’re both projecting their own self inflicted homophobia onto me 

It would serve both you and your parents if you left blanc.

I know