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I thought you were waiting for the 30th to live stream. I wanna see your body go limp. not 90 seconds of you swallowing m&ms

Bossroach said: 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8bg0BRsi4Zw

 this isnt funny stop

Bossroach said: 

It's been great with you. I've been depressed and struggling with self esteem issues since I was a child and after this whole therapy thing I don't see the point in living anymore.

Quintasia came into my life during a period when I was convinced that nobody will ever love me and that I will be feeling empty for the rest of my life. She popped in and caressed my head and told me she loves me in a motherly voice. She treated me like an attractive and decent valuable person and gave me worth and a reason to live. I now had something to live for, my wife and my kid. We're going to be a family.

She's nothing. 

You're angry and depressed that your idealist visions can't be fed anymore, not anything conducive to reality. Stop imagining your former MDMA glow for a minute and think of the reality. 

Due to my own defectiveness I made her stop loving me and made her go back to the US. I am worse than I was before. I came to the realization that whoever loves me will see who I really am and ditch me for someone better. I will never be happy or have a family.

It was a feedback loop. While your actions may not have been the best, who they happened towards isn't really exempt either. 

Earth Jim, shut out the Nostalgia for a sec. 

I made this thread to apologize to everyone who I've hurt and mistreated in many ways over the course of 6 years. I want you to know that I did it to unload my own pain and cope with my anger at life in general. You are all good people who were hurt in different ways and you deserve to be happy. Hope everything will work out for you. It did not me for. 

We aren't good people, snap out of it. 

I love you guys. See you in hell.

At least give yourself some time to process more, this is you responding to a momentary urge. While this mania of sorts is what has led you to accomplishing some of your crazier accolades, not all crazy things are of equal weight. 

Suicide when rushed is unfortunate, while suicide built up can mean many things. If it has to go like this, at least make your death not be empty, but mean something. Fight Club had the intended suicide still bring with it a sense of immortal, legendary martyrdom and a direct result on the rest of the world after it (the destruction of credit card company records, and in the book it's instead a national history museum being piledriven by a business building). 

Is your therapist the sort to report you if you talk about feeling suicidal? 

Is killing yourself over some mindfucked narcissist how you want to be remembered after all of this? 

PalePeach said: 

I thought you were waiting for the 30th to live stream. I wanna see your body go limp. not 90 seconds of you swallowing m&ms

"I just want to get it over with" is a powerful suicidal urge. 

Countdowns, as good as they are for attention whoring, in suicidal cases are for people still bartering with themselves over if it's worth it.